Being lonely is weird. Suddenly my ex sent me a text. After 3-4 months. And it brought back memories like a flashback. Intimate moments, laughs, eye contact, the initial period of tension, the eventual comfort, scenes from our entangled lives, walking hand in hand after grocery shopping, etc and for a split second, a kind of longing crept back in my mind. We weren't even together for more than 3 months. We haven't talked for longer than the time we dated and yet because i feel anxious, because i'm lonely, because he meant something at one point, because when he said he isn't doing so well, a part of me wanted to respond back immediately and ask what's wrong... knowing fully he wouldn't want to talk. Literally said so in the text, that he can't respond even though it's been so long cause he isn't doing well. Still the voice in my head murmurs, but he texted. Despite being low or down, despite not being a person who likes texting much, despite us being over and it being pointless to respond to me, he still did. Doesn't that count?