Geez it’s been years since I’ve used this and plan to keep it so after this.
A lot has changed since my wattpad days, lot of hurt and lot of learning. Many of my friends who use to use this site have moved on to bigger and better things, and honestly? I’m happy about that. I’m 21, I have a pretty good job, and hope to start college soon but who knows about that... I’ve discovered a lot about myself, such as the fact I’m not a girl and actually nonbinary (surpriiise) and I like to go by the name Jay. I wish growing up I knew the things I did now and had the same maturity/understanding, although I don’t think I’d be at that level if not for my experiences.
This message isn’t really for my followers, (sorry the 9 of you that might be active?) but rather to the people who I got this account for to begin with.
I just really wanted to say this, if you ever happen to come back down memory lane...
I’m sorry for hurting you and I wish I hadn’t been such a stubborn kid. I wish I didn’t give up so easily and tried more. For someone with such strong beliefs, you would have thought I would, but instead I let my hurt and anger control me. Your words still sting from time to time, I don’t think that memory will ever properly heal, but I think that’s because of the regret that clings to it. The bitterness left a long time ago, which I thought as a kid if I “forgave and forgot,” would help me move forward. It was true to some extent, but like I mentioned before, the painful “what ifs” and “maybes” still get to me.
You were a good friend.
You were a beautiful writer.
You were my first and only fan.
Our memories together still make me smile, sometimes teary eyed, and I’m glad I have those.
So thank you, for simply being you. I’m okay with being a chapter in your life, that I’m sure will be amazing, cause you’re you after all. Don’t stop fighting for what you want and surround yourself with great people.
If you ever need an ear, you know where to find me.
Buh-Bye, A.