angry-squid

Umm so I just need to get this off my chest real quick.
          I got caught smoking by my dad today,and he's really unimpressed. But now I want to quite for good,cuz it was nice having that thrill of knowing I could get caught,but now it just feels really shitty. After he left, i was crying on my bedroom floor and i had a panic attack before i told him how sorry i am. I don't know what to do and I know I'm going to be in a lot and I mean a lot of shit with my family. I came clean with him saying that I know its not good but he's acting like I don't exist.
          He's pretending like nothing happened but I just know he's going to give me hell. I'm just waiting for the screaming and fighting that's to come.
          He did say that he was going to speak to my mom and see what they want to do, to punish me, but here's the thing, my mom knew. she gave me the stuff and we did it together, now I just fee guilty.
          
          This doesn't even sound that bad,but trust me this feels so much worse then it sounds :/
          
          But yeah, any idea on what to do about all this?
          Some advice would be greatly appreciated.
          
          (Sry for the rant)
          

BRO-
          some people on this app are so sweet and kind :)
          Like they're complete strangers, but they are so nice.

Do u ever just hate yourself for being/doing what you do,
          Then when you want to get better all u want to do is make it worse??

Everything's going to be ok
          <3
          
          

How has you're day been??