S. Williams

This is very random but ideal future life:
          
          - small town with a close-knit community, that still has people my own age in it (i want friends for neighbors, and while thats possible with people who are much older than me… i want to live near ppl my own age okay)
          
          - i want a me-friendly home, with a garden (display-storage for my slight hoarding tendencies (/hj) included)
          
          - i want to wear whatever clothes i want to, but that was always the plan as soon as i moved out of my parents house lol
          
          - i want to work from home, but i also really want to be a teacher so… working in an online school system sounds cool
          
          - i want to volunteer at places, but specifically at a library

I have been informed that my parents house is even less safe for my sibling than i thought, so much for relying on the financial support until im 20! Sorry joking is my coping mechanism. 
          
          I may be crying because i, at the age of 15, should not have to think about how to save enough money to live on my own as soon as possible, just so that my sibling has a place outside of our parents house to go
          
          I should at least be able to talk to my older sister about it right? Nope! She’d immediately talk to mom because shes good at communication, but communication is not really safe in this case!

So apparently the plural of cyclops is cyclopes.
          Wow, okay then

Me, reading part of the Odyssey for school: oh god no please do not do that with the lady who just tried to kill you- dont you have a wife- please stop
          
          School: okay now that you have the three points of; blind a cyclops, get attacked by giants for like a paragraph, spend far too much time on an evil lady’s island doing things you shouldn’t be doing as a married person at all, much less w someone who tried to kill you, then spend time w/ sirens for another paragraph; go write an essay where one of the main points is how odysseus is “an ideal example of manhood”
          
          im going to die from the sheer weight of the dread that comes when i foresee my bullcrapping skills leveling up in the near future

One good part of most of my emotions deciding to nope out of my brain: 
          I no longer cry when I see a stinging insect like a bee or wasp, much less have a panic attack at the sound of buzzing like when i was younger.
          
          And in case anyone’s wondering, I’m not allergic to bees or wasps, I’m just irrationally terrified of them.
          The running theory is apparently that I was allergic to them in a past life and died that way.

I tried to give Cookie Run Kingdom a review but I think it was too long so you guys can have it instead:
          
          First things first: if you’re looking through the reviews to see if you should download this game, my suggestion is a wholehearted “YES.”
          
          And before I say anything else, let me just explain something about myself: I don’t really *do* games… at least not long term.
          I’m not saying that I don’t regularly hop into the app store and download something to try and entertain myself—what I mean is that no matter what, any game I download tends to only hold my attention for a month at *most*. But honestly? 2 weeks is usually pushing it for my attention span.
          
          That said, I noticed today—as in 5 minutes ago actually—that this has not been the case with Cookie Run. Sure, there have been times I’ve barely touched it for more than a week, which is usually a sign im about to drop the game, but no: I started playing back in September of 2021, its now February 1st of 2022, and I am still regularly playing the game.
          
          I focus more on resource gathering and playing in guild/arena battles myself, but there are so many different things to do inside the game itself. So many different options of what to do each time you enter the game, but when you first start it doesn’t throw them at you all at once either. This game is seriously a work of art—literally, considering the cookie designs. 
          
          The events add another level to the game as well: They give new things to work towards. I also really love every new cookie that comes out, and I especially love how even the limited-time cookies are accessible for new players with (in some cases quite a bit of) luck. 
          

Helloooo 
          how is everyone today?

I have had a sudden drop in my stress levels and it is Affecting me
          I would like to start a petition to make a law that makes murdering me legal/nsrs

You know what would be great
          Not hearing…thinking? Loud sounds. Ever. 
          That would be nice
          But it would also be nice if my thoughts never decide to mimic what they think clouds would sound like if clouds made sounds
          
          Does this make sense
          I dont think it makes sense
          Like, its not a physical thing its a completely mental sense of “oh my god it is so freaking loud”
          Or “what thought? No thoughts exist. Mind empty, my brain = cotton candy”
          God forbid quiet thoughts on days i have stuff to do that sucks

I am becoming increasingly aware of my habit of occasionally getting up, walking down the hallway to my bathroom,  opening the door to go into the br, then i go to my bathroom window and i adjust the curtain, and then i just walk out, close the door, and go back to my bed. I dont even look out the window, i just walk there and back.
          
          I do this repeatedly: at least once every hour or so, and its been completely unconscious for i dont even know how long? And ive noticed ive been doing it so i just tried to stop to see if i could and it makes my heart go all weird and anxious. What in the world me, what the heck, why do you do this