I'm so tired,
I'm tied of trying,
I'm tired of school,
I'm tired of not being enough,
I'm tired of looking at myself in the mirror,
I'm tired of my own freaking face,
I just want to give up to stop trying to just lay down and never wake up, Its gotten to the point where i break down everyone morning i have school, I just cant handle this anymore, I cant handle life anymore, and it't not like I'm getting bullied anymore, but in a way I am, I'm bulling myself, I just don't know how far i can make it before i just completely give up, I thought my depression was gone, but it just came slamming back, I'm not okay, and I'm not happy, but the best thing I can do is put on a brave smile, and fake my way through until its all over and I don't have to feel anything anymore. Before my depression wasn't even close to what it is now, and I'm not doing this for attention I just needed to get it off my chest, I cant tell my friends because I don't feel were close enough for me to just dump all my problems on them, and I cant tell my family because they wont believe me, they'll say I'm making it up to get attention, they'll make it worse. I honestly thought it was gone after you had helped me through it, and it was fot a while, but now its back and your gone, and I have no one to talk to, and i've never felt so unbelievably alone well surrounded by people. And normally i would take a break from everything but Im gonna try to just put everything I'm feeling on my characters and hopefully take it away from me. I honestly don't know if this will work or not, it could help me get better or it could make me way worse but i thought if it means i have the chance to be happy again i should try it, right? Anyways, I love you guys if you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here. Xx Annie
