annewithan_eee

definitely, love. party her. 
            some of the boomer people that know her here pity her because of their religious belief that she's not in somewhere nice because she took her own life. i think otherwise. i believe that she is okay. i belive she is happy. 
            
            all she can yap about on earth is maybe she'll be okay in the afterlife. if god won't let her have that after years of anguish here.. i don't know what i'll do. i'll feel rage. 
            
            but definitely, she'll love that we won't be sad. but it's also okay to feel what you feel. sit with it, but don't let it consume you. it's okay. she understands and i know she will heal with you. i know she's healing with us. 
            
            for me, i think grief will forever linger but it's okay. after all what is grief if not love persevering? i lost a lot of loved ones lately that are related to her. she's happy to be reunited. she's okay. she's taking their hand in the afterlife for them to be okay too. 
            
            her legacy will forever live on the people she loved and people that loved her. i'm happy to be one of those.
            
            forgive me on this but i cannot resist to joke this. this place is a graveyard like where she is now. back to life? i wish i could bring her back to life to slap some sense into her rather than this account.

@funscozy 
            
            hi, baby ! 
            i'm absolutely sure that's she's proud of you wherever she is. i can be a friend or an unnie you can lean on if you want to. not a 100% her but i can try. i sure am proud of you. thank you for loving her. keep going. 

@funscozy her legacy is living on with you atleast. I also cope that way. I make better choices, so that she'll live on with me ...

I came back on this account after a while, because I've been suffering from another friend's loss... I've been thinking about her more than usual. It's good to know that her legacy continues with all of us whom she loved. I am glad that there were more friends there for her when I really wasn't. I knew she kept complaining about the world, always talked about she wanted to suicide... I thought I'd talked her out of it.. guess I failed... But hey atleast she's in a better place now?

my condolences to everyone that loved her. it's been year or so since i was informed. i still cant get over it. it's going to be tough be it's alright. i always think that shes in my heart. in all our heart. so it would be less painful. 
            
            thank you all! from this day ownward i will use this account so dont be confused. it's to fulfil her letter and her legacy on this app. i wont post her drafts (it's her privacy) but i would like to make and upload stories of my own here. i dont like to be reminded of her death so i would like it if people dont ask me much in the future. for now it will be okay for people to ask. since i posted this here it's expected that there will be questions. reactions, and responces. it's alright.

there are people she mention in her suicide letter and some of her notes she wrote a few days before her passing!!!! 
            
            she calls them unnies and dongsaeng (i dont know how to spell it correctly). her letter is in the custody of her family. i did not take a picture of it in respect to them. 
            by the way, i would like to inform you all that she loved you all. even in her suffering, even in her last days. 
            
            here are the two names i remembered!!
            i would love to thank these two with my whole being, she loves you so much, Bhakti and Aurora. "unnie bhakti, i'm so sorry for leaving. i am so grateful for having you in my life. sorry for not fulfilling our dreams. i love you. i always will", "unie aurora, thank you for all the days you were there for me. i am so blessed to have you. i love you, i will never say it enough" sorry to the ones i didn't remember all the names she said. she has full letters for everyone she loved! i just cant take pictures because the family doesn't allow it. and i dont even know if i spelled the two names correctly or if that's their names at all, and its been a year since i read her letters, but if i remember correctly that's what she said and so much more. she was individual letter for certain people, i think she wrote a few days prior/before she ended it all. 
            
            she loved you all!!
            those are just the names i remember and i think needs special mentions. and to her dongseaeng! she thinks you're the sweetest! "dont forget that i love you" was her words to you. and so much more. she was a full essay for you (for all of us). i didn't read it all because it's between you and her, it's your private letter.
            
            "i love you all" 
            
            is her final words in her suicide letter. so if any of you need comforting, an angel in heaven loves you so much and she is watching over you. it's upseting that the family doesn't allow pictures so people who she wrote letter to can read it but that's how it is i guess. 
            
            im sorry you all. rest in heaven, sweet angel.

@csilla___ oh... It's ok, we both know she is very strong and that nothing will happen.. It's not your fault ok? I may not know you but from what you said it's not your fault. Im sorry it must've been uncomfortable for you to tell me, but I'm glad you did... I got really worried when I saw your message

@csilla___ Uhm she's my unnie...

if you still have questions, you can message me . no prob, you guys are family to her too therefore you have much right to know too