@Smeraldo0 ok first off, please don't apologize for writing an essay! I'm glad you did, I mean I'm grateful you spent so much time on giving me a response, so thank you for that! <3
And yes actually I am the same as you most times, I just continue doing whatever I'm doing to keep myself busy, and try not to think about all these thoughts...even though what I'm doing might just be for the sake of doing something.
And well I agree... it's probably the phase where we're all finding ourselves .. and going through so many thoughts, so many feelings & emotions all at once (I actually read somewhere that, you know when someone's going through all this, it's like their mood changes 70 times a day...ha..) I mean, I think we tend to question almost each and every thing during this phase we're going through, and even though it isn't easy and we might not like it.. I think, it's an important part of our growth, isn't it? That's what I like to think to comfort myself, or well more like, tell myself that this is fine, this is normal, this has to happen, and that you'll get through it soon
And yea, about caring so much...I meant both people and future, and I agree with you r thoughts on both these things...thank you for those words :)
I usually think the same way, in the sense that...you just have to try and be happy right now, and not worry yourself too much with all your problems..
Anyway, thank you and I hope you have a good day too! ♡