anniebecky15

"I have this weird self esteem issue where I hate myself, yet I still think I'm better than everyone else."
          	Ha.. Got me thinking

anniebecky15

"Having anxiety & depression is like being scared and tired at the same time. It's the fear of failure, but no urge to be productive. It's wanting friends but hate socializing. It's wanting to be alone but not wanting to be lonely. It feels everything at once so it's like you're numb."

anniebecky15

@Smeraldo0 ok first off, please don't apologize for writing an essay! I'm glad you did, I mean I'm grateful you spent so much time on giving me a response, so thank you for that! <3
            And yes actually I am the same as you most times, I just continue doing whatever I'm doing to keep myself busy, and try not to think about all these thoughts...even though  what I'm doing might just be for the sake of doing something.
            And well I agree... it's probably the phase where we're all finding ourselves .. and going through so many thoughts, so many feelings & emotions all at once (I actually read somewhere that, you know when someone's going through all this, it's like their mood changes 70 times a day...ha..)  I mean, I think we tend to question almost each and every thing during this phase we're going through, and even though it isn't easy and we might not like it.. I think, it's an important part of our growth, isn't it? That's what I like to think to comfort myself, or well more like, tell myself that this is fine, this is normal, this has to happen, and that you'll get through it soon
            
            And yea, about caring so much...I meant both people and future, and I agree with you r thoughts on both these things...thank you for those words :)
             I usually think the same way, in the sense that...you just have to try and be happy right now, and not worry yourself too much with all your problems..
            Anyway, thank you and I hope you have a good day too! ♡
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anniebecky15

@fluffy_dandruff yea exactly! That's what I feel too...
            And aww thanks,  you too!
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Smeraldo0

@anniebecky15 
            I can relate to what you feel 
            I usually feel lost, even when I'm doing something I like , I lose all my passion towards it suddenly .. feeling drained and not wanting to talk to anyone but I usually just leave all my worries behind and continue what I'm doing . It's hard but it's my way ; to keep myself busy as long as I can , helps me to stop thinking and questioning myself if I'm really good enough ..
            Teenagers usually feel it , and I'm not gonna talk about hormonal changes , I'll just tell you that anyone who is really growing up .
            His/Her mind is growing up by thinking more maturely will feel like this 
            It's the phase in which you decide who you really are .. feeling anxious is normal because you still didn't find a thing that makes you satisfied while working on it 
            And I'm just like you , I think life is too short to stick to only one carrier 
            
            And about caring so much, i don't know if you're talking about people's thoughts or your future but if it was about people i just wanna tell you to always choose yourself 
            Don't be selfish but don't give many opportunities to people who don't deserve it 
            As for your future, care about it but if you didn't find a dream like everybody else , we aren't all the same so It's enough to have a happy time with yourself or your family ..
            As long as you're having a good time don't think about your problems
            Tomorrow's problems is for tomorrow 
            
            Sorry that I nearly wrote an essay !! :) 
            but I just wrote but I felt 
            And I hope you have a good day ♡ 
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Celestial_Crystals

Hey there! Thanks for the follow, I really appreciate it!
          If I am not wrong, you found my account from my comment in Trouble in Paradise? right?
          Nice to meet you!!

anniebecky15

@Celestial_Crystals Heyy 
            Yupp! :D your comment was exactly my thoughts at that moment hehe 
            Thanks for following back <3 nice to meet you too! :)
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