Hey I hope you're feeling better. I wish you would find something to make you happy, if not then be happy for yourself because you deserve that. You don't need anything to make you happy, just you. Like what I read on tumblr, it's okay if you save only one person and it's okay if that person is you. I hope you don't give up on us and specially, yourself. I may not be speaking from experience yet but I do believe it all gets better. You may not always see it but the sun is out there and it will always be there. Love yah!