riyan

nakakaasar yung feeling na ginawa mo naman lahat, kaya yun lang nakayanan mo tapos magtatanong pa sila kung bakit yun lang.

I'm really sorry.

i thought its okay but to my disappointment, its not.

i don't like that.

im afraid that if someone will read all my post here, they will be confuse too in what am i saying or they will think that im being so dramatic or i am gramatically wrong heheh.
          
          fine, fine im thinking too much heheh but i admit im not that really good at english so im really sorry for the grammar.
          
          
          

i was so excited when i get what i want, but... as the day passed by it seems like that was not for me. 
          
          we can't really achieve that one thing we like if we didn't passed through hard times, but i've gotten to that point that i can't really take all the pressure so i ran away...
          
          it's always been like that, once tried it, i will give a little effort. and ran away if it doesn't work out well.
          
          im always being careful and scared to put all my efforts into one thing that i really like.

it feels like i don't have anyone to lean on....
          
          i know, i know, the problem is me. i always distance myself to everyone who cares for me. 
          
          it's always been me. 

now i really quit.

i really want it but it doesn't seem like its for me.

starting by now... if i can't just take it anymore i will make this as my personal diary, coz it seems that no one will read it and no one knows me.