Remi

I want my mum

My heart is yearning for something out of reach
          These memories keep repeating, oh lord, they're haunting me. 
          Gates of iron, guard my shallow heart
          Walls of sandstone, try to keep you afar
          It's a new damn day, it's a new damn week
          I try to avoid your face, but you keep finding me. 
          In the dark corners of my room to the many notebook pages I've filled of you
          It's funny, really, how much I try to not think of you. 
          Your presence which once provided comfort now reminds me of simpler times
          When I wasn't so fucked up, man, I was still a child. 
          This was God's will, this was God's way. 
          I don't care about him anymore, not since you faded away.

I slept for 3 hours

THE NEW THIRTEEN REASONS WHY FF WILL PROBABLY BE UP BY NEXT WEEK

I am running on two hours of sleep right now. I slept at 1 am and have been up since 3.30am. I need yall to PRAY that I dont fall asleep while writing my exam

THE FUCKING IRONY THAT IM MOVING ACCOUNTS ON THE DAY THIS ACCOUNT TURNS ONE YEAR OLD HELP-

Oh come on! 

thank you for the follow! <3

remind you..  to follow me, I guess-

I want to live, not just exist.
          I want to fly, not just dream of it.
          I'm spending my so called "Glory Years" alone
          Wishing I didn't exist,
          Praying they won't find the secrets in my soul. 
          The world might've been a better place, 
          If maybe I wasn't born in the first place.
          "Everything happens for a reason they said." 
          Not knowing that I was the reason that the house was falling apart at all. 
          Should I cry, or should I fall? 
          Should I let the ground crush me so hard I wouldn't be able to get uo?
          Cause I can't.
          I can't pretend to be happy when I'm not.
          I'm trying, I swear to god. 
          I don't wanna be the fucker with a messed up mind, 
          I wanna be the woman with a writer's soul.