aracetohellsend

And when I left home
          	I thought I'll grow
          	Only to be back 
          	And live like I was four

aracetohellsend

I've always wanted to be independent. They seem so strong, fearless, and can manage on their own.
          
          I've always been dependent. I'm not strong, brave, and can't even manage on my own. 
          
          
          For someone to be strong, they have to be sturdy enough not to collapse.
          
          For someone to be brave, they have to had overcome their fears or lose their sense of fear.
          
          For someone to live alone, they have to know a way around things to continue...living.
          
          
          "What makes them sturdy?"
          
          "How did they overcome their fears?"
          
          "What makes them go on?"
          
          
          I can't keep pretending...
          
          
          I can't keep hiding...
          
          
          I can't keep lying to myself...
          
          
           when I'm about to fall apart.