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i made someone cry with a crappy oneshot that was less than 1,800 words what thebheck 

you have been the most valuable, treasured gift that i've been honored to receive. there are no regrets about my friendship w you, and there is nothing i would change about our dynamic, how we met, our memories. you've been my sanctuary for over a year now, and i dedicate all my work to you, because without your dedication and encouragement, i wouldn't of had the balls to continue. you inspired my most genuine side of me and for that i am forever grateful, and thankful to call you my friend. there is no distance that can abstain the way you bring me joy everyday, because you blossom in fragments that exist around me, and i relish in the thought of you whenever destiny reminds me of you. you're my one and only ball buddy, forever and always. 
          
          love you! 
          
          your ball buddy <3

okay guys, it’s 2024.  i decided to get into the process of rereading my old writing just to see how much i’ve grown from when i genuinely started putting my all into writing compared to now.  i’m still building up the balls to reread paper cranes just because i absolutely despise the plot and ever changing writing style, but it’s insane that my writing is actually not all that trashy.  absolutely mind blown.  a lot of these pieces i wrote at a very specific time in my life and they take me back to rainy and lonely february days or carefree summer nights under the covers, it has been an absolute journey this past year.  
          thank you, all of you for your tremendous amount of support because all this magic is your doing.  ✨

do you guys actually still read my writing 

words are gorgeous.  in a way, they convey something more beautiful than life, and sweeter than honey, in sometnkng so stunning.  because emotions are never a strong suit, and it’s so pretty realizing that others are going though the same thing
          
          with that said, depressive episode #669 (vii. and that’s because) posted in my poetry book dreamcatcher 

impulsively unpublished all my fics.
          i will literally send link to my google docs with the entire book up to chapter 14, and every other scenario i've written that never got published, with a bunch of notes, plans, a scrapped ending, poetry dumps, the epilogue, the entirety of chapter 19, everything, to anyone who asks.
          
          and thanks. thanks for playing my game.

love u bbg <3

dear bbg,
          i wanted to tell you how much you mean to me- i literally love our convos, even if they are shallow and short, or long and dramatic, i love every single one. i love the way you write, it is so perfect and you are so so so talented and i can't thank you enough for letting me be apart of your writing process and getting to read and see your amazing shit that you write. you are truly a brilliant, humorous, and charming person, and i literally can't get enough of our friendship. i truly aspire to write like you do, in such an easy, poetic manner, and i hope you know how much you make me laugh. i can't quit smiling each time we chat, and i literally get so excited when i realize it is time to talk to you every night. you mean more than i could ever express, and i don't even want to try and break it down because it would ruin it. you are too perfect for words, and i wouldn't change our friendship for anything even in the world, even to go see taylor swift or meet jenna ortega. that's how much you mean to me, and i wanted to tell you.
          to my lovely ball buddy, from your left tit <3333

broski you are literally a poetry goddess i worship you anytime and everytime you post because i can't get enough of your scrumptious work! i am in awe and captivated by ur shit and i cannot believe how much we share in common!! i literally am so happy to talk to you because you are the only person in the world who understands my odd humor and personality and i literally am so glad the stars aligned perfectly for us to be able to be ball buddies for life. ilytsm know everytime i look at the stars i think of you <333

ayo do you prefer deez nuts or my 4 balls?