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i genuinely don't know what do i do w this app anymore,,,, i don't even use ths

my family looked at me as soon as i was born and thought "oh yeah, we're definitely giving her all of our responsibilities once she hits the age of 10" so now im stuck in this fuckass toxic household trying my best not to kms because once college hits, im done being everyone's babysitter

why does my mental health always start deteriorating every time august is about to end wtf omfg i cant believed i relapsed over some fuckass schoolworks

"if i get rejected, I'll just make them on c.ai instead!" what an odd thing to say. "it's just a joke" jokes has limits btw, it's fucking weird using c.ai and creating bots about irl people. mind you, the people you are talking about are REAL people, REAL human beings that you see and interact with almost everyday and you're out here complaining about being bullied and harassed by our classmates while you yourself continue to make people around you uncomfortable, specially your crush that you fantisized sexually? saying shits like he'll be the top and you'll be the bottom? I'm not even against on fantisizing about crushes, but there should be a limit to it specially if they have a partner and if they're fansizing it sexually, i don't care if they're a minor themselves, it still weird as fuck and taking his picture and putting it on your diary is no longer admiring btw, that's called obsession. I'm not even defending his bullies, I'm just saying that all he does is complains about getting bullied because he's bisexual but there's more than that. I don't support the bullying that is currently happening to him, but i don't support or like his actions either. in all honesty, i do actually feel bad for him, but what can i say to defend him? he's done some more terrible things than what I've mentioned. like i get it, it's not your fault that you're getting bullied, bullying happens all the time but the fact that your using it as an excuse to hide your dirty ass secrets and horrible actions is just straight up dogshit and disrespectful to people that had been bullied like myself.

sometimes i want to become a teacher and teach high schoolers in my school but at the same time i dont cus i dont think they'll accept atheist teachers lol(i study in a catholic school)

"i could be a good mother" but you always make jokes about putting me up for adoption

everyone told me to be mature at the age of 7 and go fuck myself instead of relying on other people and so im relying on the internet and now i just realized how unhealthy that is because now i dont feel safe unless i have my eyes attached on a goddamn screen

i js realized my old history teacher follows me on ig HELP??? so glad that the random shits i post in my stories are set to close friends only cus it would've been too awkward if she sees me cussing and crashing out over twisted wonderland

its lowkey funny to me when i realized tbat my best subject is religion bht jm an atheist and everytime i saw a question on a test / exam about something like "What do you need to do when your struggling" and i answer those with like "Pray to God" or smth similar to tgat kbowing damn well that i dont do that and insgead i js scroll on tiktok or play games lmao

everything's js lowkey pissing me off these days. im stressed asf, i hate my annoying ass classmates that keeps bothering me, im trying to maintain good grades bc i do rlly wanna improve my grades this school year(specially my filipino grades, i dont want to get another 81/B- in my report card again) and my family keeps bothering the shit out of me. its like its timed when im literally studying and its pisses me off