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i dont think any of my mutals here would even interact with me anymore or even remember who i am so saying this is meaningless but I'll say it anyways
          
          if you know me irl, no you dont
          
          it's been a month since school started for me; my class this year wasn't supposed to be my actual classmates this year but i switched classes for the sake of my friends. not that im upset with it; if anything, i was the one willing to switch classes. but i guess things dont turn out the way i thought it would, lol.
          
          i miss my old class. i feel homesick. i kept coming back to my old classmates every chance i get — recess, lunch time, and vacant time but no amount of things can solve this feeling.
          
          my friends here have their own friend groups. not that im saying that **i** should be their priority, but im quite unfamiliar with this kind of feeling and i hate being unfamiliar with things. and everytime i want to try and talk to them, they're always with them and i dont want to include myself in their conversations or group because if i try to do it, I'll probably labelled as an attention seeker for the entire school year.
          
          maybe it wasn’t the best option to switch classes. sure, i got what i want — be in the same class as my friends and get away from that noisy fucker in my old class, but at what cost?

BRUH I SWEAR MOST OF MY MOOTS HERE BECAME TWST FANS AFTER I BECAME INACTIVE HERE T__T WHAT HAPPENED

honestly not even active here anymore, but what the fuck happened to everyone's bio?? cant tell if it's js a me problem but everyone's bio is blank for me

i genuinely don't know what do i do w this app anymore,,,, i don't even use ths

my family looked at me as soon as i was born and thought "oh yeah, we're definitely giving her all of our responsibilities once she hits the age of 10" so now im stuck in this fuckass toxic household trying my best not to kms because once college hits, im done being everyone's babysitter

why does my mental health always start deteriorating every time august is about to end wtf omfg i cant believed i relapsed over some fuckass schoolworks

"if i get rejected, I'll just make them on c.ai instead!" what an odd thing to say. "it's just a joke" jokes has limits btw, it's fucking weird using c.ai and creating bots about irl people. mind you, the people you are talking about are REAL people, REAL human beings that you see and interact with almost everyday and you're out here complaining about being bullied and harassed by our classmates while you yourself continue to make people around you uncomfortable, specially your crush that you fantisized sexually? saying shits like he'll be the top and you'll be the bottom? I'm not even against on fantisizing about crushes, but there should be a limit to it specially if they have a partner and if they're fansizing it sexually, i don't care if they're a minor themselves, it still weird as fuck and taking his picture and putting it on your diary is no longer admiring btw, that's called obsession. I'm not even defending his bullies, I'm just saying that all he does is complains about getting bullied because he's bisexual but there's more than that. I don't support the bullying that is currently happening to him, but i don't support or like his actions either. in all honesty, i do actually feel bad for him, but what can i say to defend him? he's done some more terrible things than what I've mentioned. like i get it, it's not your fault that you're getting bullied, bullying happens all the time but the fact that your using it as an excuse to hide your dirty ass secrets and horrible actions is just straight up dogshit and disrespectful to people that had been bullied like myself.

sometimes i want to become a teacher and teach high schoolers in my school but at the same time i dont cus i dont think they'll accept atheist teachers lol(i study in a catholic school)

"i could be a good mother" but you always make jokes about putting me up for adoption

everyone told me to be mature at the age of 7 and go fuck myself instead of relying on other people and so im relying on the internet and now i just realized how unhealthy that is because now i dont feel safe unless i have my eyes attached on a goddamn screen