armymukta

@armymukta fr bro. And well idk - I was kinda scared cuz u weren’t msging me. Like I was fkin bored yesterday and I mean it. My mom WASNT allowing me to use my phone cuz I’ve to “tAlk tO my cOUsiNs.” 
            
            Anygays…how are u? I js wanna go home rn (idk where home is?) 

@yoonjiclause_savage Yaiks! I'm judging her without even meeting her honestly. 
            You don't actually even have to like k-pop but maybe don't make people sad about it like a beatch. 

@armymukta welp cuz I added the news cutout to my K-pop diary. Im so fkin proud of them. I also wrote - king behaviour! Cuz it is. 
            
            Bro I don’t even know his name (I DO) (it’s Taigh) omgomgomg. But it’s not THAT serious. 
            
            Long curly hair seems like a lot of trouble. And pretty. Like u might be the Indian fine shyt! AAGHHH. CURLS ARENT easy. Those straight hair ppl won’t ever understand…
            
            Haha. U could read it but srsly focus on ur studies. I cried sm cuz it’s fkin angsty rn and I don’t like angst. *cries more* 
            
            I love chu *sniffles* bye! 

@armymukta welp cuz I added the news cutout to my K-pop diary. Im so fkin proud of them. I also wrote - king behaviour! Cuz it is. 
            
            Bro I don’t even know his name (I DO) (it’s Taigh) omgomgomg. But it’s not THAT serious. 
            
            Long curly hair seems like a lot of trouble. And pretty. Like u might be the Indian fine shyt! AAGHHH. CURLS ARENT easy. Those straight hair ppl won’t ever understand…
            
            Haha. U could read it but srsly focus on ur studies. I cried sm cuz it’s fkin angsty rn and I don’t like angst. *cries more* 
            
            I love chu *sniffles* bye! 

@yoonjiclause_savage That is a great story. I'd make sure to add it to one of my reading lists if I haven't yet. But yeah, after exams I guess. Studies are so hard. I hate everything T~T. 
            
            So you got a little chiggi wiggy on Tyler's lookalike huh! Heh. That's good, girl. And my crushes were just crushed. None of them were ever serious but yeah. I love nerds (not in a sexual objectifying way or something since I fall into that catagory myself, just definitely not hot T^T). You're not creepy. Don't even start with what actual creepy is *> ~ <*. You're a cutie. 
            
            I have long curly hair and somebody literally said to my face "curls are so easy". I'm surprised I'm not in j a i l rn. Also, DID YOU SEE WHAT BTS DID TO GRAMMYS?? PLEASE TELL ME YOU DID!!! 
            
            I would have to read it girl. I would have to. Thanks for the wish. I'm trying my best *cries*. I love you too bby. 

@yoonjiclause_savage Aww Your grandma was such an angel. It's okay to let it all out. I wouldn't tell you to not cry. I know how important it is to let the emotions flow. She was so so amazing as a person. 
            
            It is not because of you. Nothing bad happened because of you. You told me how she was going though a rough battle. She is resting where she is now. Nothing is your fault, it is no one's actually. 
            Please take care of yourself. You worry me sometimes :((

@armymukta thanks for the constant reassurance. Bro I was feeling shitty again and js had this longass crying session rn. My eyes are swollen. I forgot that I would never get to see my grandma again. (Hehe come the tears again) 
            
            My mom was talking abt her pregnancy and the labor pain when she had my sis. I remembered I was 6 years old back thrn and my grandma had bought a lot of those marigold flowers and decorated them on the table and placed them in such a way thst it said - welcome home baby. I remember helping her. Then, I came across a pic where im on her lap, kissing her cheek. This all happened in the afternoon and I js laughed it out and shi- but I controlled for 12+ hours for a good cry. Also a ton of other memories…
            
            I js noticed that im distancing myself from everyone. Even my family. Idk prolly cuz im  scared this would happen again. Like. My Nani was my comfort person before I even knew what it meant. She’d always been there but I remember the night before…umm this. (June 17) my masi was like, “u gotta pray for her betterment. All u can do is pray.” But in my mind, I surprisingly said - rest in peace Nani. The next day i woke up, my mom didn’t know I was up, but I tried to figure out what they were talking, that’s when I heard “I’ll get the dead body” GIRL IM ACTUALLY CRYING. And now I think it’s bcoz of me. Like I know it isn’t, but my mind is js…idk. 
            
            Ouch…anyways. I’ll binge write or read after another crying session. Love u

@yoonjiclause_savage AT 6?? Damn! I woke up at 6. I get it tho. When you have the clear idea and a creativity rush, you gotta do what you do. Good job baby. 
            I hope you're okay man. I once teleported from the third floor to the ground floor and yes the stairs did that. *sigh* Anyway. Take care of yourself. 
            
            YUR STORY IS NOT SHITTY. I LIKE IT. YOU'RE DOING GOOD. it's hard to write a whole story okay, I know that. With so many things going on and you're doing great. 

@armymukta lmao

@yoonjiclause_savage Yessir *salutes with a happy pout*

@armymukta im do fkin sorry princess. I thought I might sound weird or smth so I didn’t call u princess often but now *makes a mental note* I will!

@armymukta oops- nah cuz fr I ain’t marrying anybody if their family is angsty or toxic. My mom made that mistake and is now suffering but I FUCKING WONT. Also, it seems like the mosquitos here are obsessed with my blood. Lil bro literally got inside my blanket and today morning I saw there are these red itchy marks all over my elbows and palms. IM DISGUSTED (I took a icy cold shower thrice bcoz I feel disgusted) 
            
            Like bro im alr on my periods and u are busy sucking off. WHERE WOULD I GET NEW BLOOD FROM. I need blood princess. I might die *crying intensifies* and there goes my water supply in the form of tears. 
            
            Lmao not sueing Yoongi. But srsly like if u don’t love each other, then fucking get divorced (or prolly get a dick) but guess what, they have no kids. *deep sigh* 
            
            It’s sad there are so many people like this and soo less people who are actually nice. Nah cuz every family always has that one person yk? 
            
            Anygays, have a nice time, princess!

@yoonjiclause_savage I know right. The sleep cycle itself is a curse. 
            
            My auto correct is kinda stupid too (I'm sorry auto-correct), it just always swaps the 'Love' to 'Live' like?? I know I'm so single and everything but we can't type now??! Smh. 
            YESSS! FUTURE BETTER BE OKAY! or I'm suing Min Yoongi *clenches fist*.
            
            Bruh! I know some ppl like your uncle and aunt. They're my uncle and aunt lmao. They just CANNOT stand each other (form the very start) and yet, look at them- 2 kids and everything. And I'm gonna be honest, some people should just TALK FOR ONCE AND SOLVE THINGS, BUT NO! They're gonna act like children and fight their whole life. 
            
            Girl! WHAT THE F-. That's so fuked up. I'm so sorry you guys had to hear that. That's just not okay. I'm truly in disbelief. Mei toh na sehti and I'm not kidding. Please tell me she got scolded at least. That'd be less actually. WTF! Anybody would be mad. I'm mad now. Tell her what she is when she's sober. Even better- stay away from her. She's just not okay. 
            Talking from experience because I had someone like this in my family and she fuked it up (my family). Even her ghost would not be forgiven my me. 

@armymukta nah cuz the last part is soo true. I always text u at night cuz I can’t in the morning without being questioned. So, unfortunately im always sleepy and shi- but then it js randomly dissapears like a switch. I mean, the first wave of sleepiness hits me while im texting and then it goes away by the time im done and while proofreading im like “what POSESSED me to write this!” And then I’ve to wait till 3am to actually sleep? Idk *cries* 
            
            That’s shoo cute. I don’t actually have any friends, leave alone K-pop freinds. Also, I uploaded the pic in the start of thr chapter for u to see. Ik their names now but CANT recognise thrm (totally not crashing out) ALSO WHY DOES AUTOCORRECT KEEP REPLACING THE ‘e’ with ‘r’ LIKE EHATS WTONG WITH U! 
            
            Im glad im trustable and I’d love to say that ur the same. I can trust u while ranting out and honestly js…be myself without any filters. Don’t worry, “futures gonna be okay!” Js remember Yoongi’s words! 
            
            Btw im back at my uncles place and Ughh it’s not good. Also, Wht di my aunt and uncle act like ex’s. I mean they always keep quarreling and stop once they realize im listening. Like hello? Those ‘homophobic’ boys in my class act more romantically either each other than u - a literal married couple. LIKE WHY THE FUCK DID U MARRY IF U WANTED TO FIGHT! Shits frustrating. 
            
            Also, my dads mom was drunk and told me and my sis…wait *clears throath* “if u wouldn’t hv left India, ur Nani would’ve been alive!” LIKE BRO U OK? When I told this to my mom, she was MAD. 
            
            Anygays, good night, sleep tight and dont let the bedbugs bite. Love ya!

@armymukta Dw I laughed too. Infact my sister was like “ OMGG LOOK AT THIS PIG WITHOUT WINGS AND SHI-” YOU CAN LAUGH I won’t feel bad. Im in a veryyy good mood rn and im soo full rn my stomach almost hurts.

@yoonjiclause_savage  BROKEN BUTT! LMAO. I'm laughing so hard rn. I hope you're okay tho (you know i mean it). I feel sorry that I don't feel sorry for laughing. *clears throat* LMAO. Sorry. 
            
            Maagi is the medicine for falling down? Smh. You deserve it bby. Eat good and rest. 

@yoonjiclause_savage everybody thought I was lunatic but I was like “hell fkin yeah” I made my day! (My mom is pissed at me) ANYGAYS! I’ll get Maggi cuz I fell down

@armymukta aww dont cry. I js tend to run my nails and dig them into my palms when I’m nervous or trying not to cry. BRO UNFRIEND THAT FRIEND nah SHES toxic. 
            
            Well yeah…I fell down. Also, I didn’t have my crying session from days and hadn’t cried since her death. But today my mom was randomly like, “are u js silent or tu depressed?” And uhmm well my dam kinda broke. I had a looongass crying session. Now I feel much better and thanks for always being there for me. Ily too!

@yoonjiclause_savage One of my friends was like, "Do you wanna die?" I said "No!" She said "Then you're not depressed." I was like "WTF!?" 
            
            I understand you baby. Please don't think into it too much. I know how hard it could be. I didn't see these messages at first. I thought the worst that happened was you falling today. Which I feel so bad for right now. Listen baby, you are going to be okay. Everything is going to be okay. Please don't harm yourself. This is so serious. Please! 
            
            You're not ruining my mood. You're my friend and I care about you okay? No mood has to do anything with that. It doesn't matter when you need me, it matters that you can tell me how you feel so the time an door does not matter, okay? I love you. Please know that. I'd hate it if anything happens to you. I'm fking crying right now. 

@armymukta thank you! Im actually jumping on my bed rn cuz uhmmmm u complemented my writing! I’d love to read ur work! Mine is on 20th July! 
            
            Pls be safe and keep hydrated. I love ya!

@yoonjiclause_savage THANK YOU. When is your b-day? 
            I had to read your story. I was thinking of from long actually but I'm just not doing too good. You know it *sighs* anyways. You are really mature. And girl, your writing is SO good. I will possibly publish something soon too lol. 
            THANKS ONCE AGAIN. I LOVE YOU. 

@armymukta WAIT OMGGG HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUU *inserts that Namjoon clip of his bday when his candle blew off on its own* DAMN IT WE SHARE THE SAME BDAY MONTH!!! Thanks for reading my story and imma comment back js in a while cuz Ughh this household is too noisy for this introvert’s liking. ANYGAYSSS! HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND MAY LORD MAKE U THE HAPPIEST PERSON ALIVE AND SNATCH ALL UR TROUBLES FOREVER! (U buriya hahah)

@armymukta hehe I was js emotional back then but now I’m fine! Okie and srsly, thanks for being there for me! I love u

@yoonjiclause_savage I wasn't ghosting you OMG! Thank you for praying for me, that's me when you tell me you wouldn't be able to message me for days lol! I'm so sorry that you cried T^T. 

@armymukta I THOUGHT U WERE GHOSTING ME OR SMTH RLLY BAD HAPPENED TO U. I was literally praying to god to keep u safe cuz like…yeah. GOSH I CRIED SO MUCH LAST NIGHT AND IDK WHY. I js had this bed feeling and a veryy bad day.