asahi_saisei

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hey to the couple of people this might concern. a few weeks ago i went and unpublished all of my stories. tbh, i thought i had deleted my account, but ig it restores it when you log back in. idk. anyways, i logged back in tonight and was surprised to see comments on my message board.  
          	
          	long story short, i haven’t been doing well mentally and made the stupid decision to delete years worth of personal journals and fanfiction that were stored on here. i was and still am ashamed of myself, and the things i wrote. but i saw the messages and felt bad, so i was going to republish them. unfortunately, it looks like wattpad doesn’t restore deleted works. the only story i didn’t delete was the halfway house, so ill republish it for now (though frankly, i cant stand to read it and have many problems with it with now that im older). but it looks like beautiful liar and whatever else i had published are gone forever. so to anyone who might’ve cared about that, i sincerely apologize. for this and all the melodrama. but, well, i hope my cringy bullshit gave you guys some enjoyment while it was up.

deardemian

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Hi there. I've decided to chip after like, what, five years? I just read about what happened to the other books. Shit happens, it's fine, I'm glad to have read them a long time ago and I just hope you'll feel better soon and that's the most important thing. 
          I came here to say even after all this time, and I am not exaggerating when I say this, I think about Above at LEAST twice a week. I don't know why, he's just a character that stuck with me. It's been a while since I've last reread the halfway house, around two years probably, but I wanted to thank you for creating this masterpiece, along with the others even if they're not here anymore. It feels silly thinking this way about a piece of fanfiction, but I suppose I never though about your works like that. They always felt like something more, like proper works.
          But yeah, THANK YOU!!! And I really really do hope you'll be and stay well! Much much much love and gratefulness <3333333 Stay safe.

asahi_saisei

hi yourself! thank YOU for taking the time to say such sweet things. it really fills me with a special kind of joy to know that you still think of above. i’m so attached to them as a character, and it’s crazy to think that they exist in the minds of others out there. seeing you call them ‘he’ also makes me smile, as a trans man who wanted to make it for everyone. above absolutely uses any pronouns :) 
            
            i still think about them too. pretty much every day, at least currently. my dissatisfaction with the halfway house made me want to rewrite it, so i did, and then i deleted it alongside everything else earlier this year. since it couldn’t be recovered, i decided to start on version three, and that’s where i’m at now. since i likely plan on adapting the premise into an original novel one day, the goal is use V3 as a sort of transitional piece to hone in my writing skills and greatly expand the world building. which i’ve done, and it’s much better, in my opinion. more mature, in a way that reflects my own emotional growth. i sometimes feel silly still writing death note fanfic at my grown age, but what can i say? it’s fun. maybe if people are interested in it, i’ll publish it here one day after it’s finished. though it’d probably end up being at least two or three times as long. 
            
            i’m happy to say i’ve been doing a lot better. i’m back on my feet, taking my meds, and trying my best to play catch-up. life has its ups and downs, but all in all, i’m still quite lucky. so i won’t complain. and i really do appreciate all your kind words. much much love and gratitude back, my friend
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bubblewrapiscool

Hello Asahi. I don't know if you'll see this, but this message is more for my own comfort than for yours. I read Beautiful Liar when I young, just barely figuring out where I stood in the world. Your story, particularly Nozomi's, helped me understand it was okay to trust people. I understand you think it's a cringe story, and I think we can all agree fanfiction is cringe on some level, but what you wrote wasn't. It was personal and harsh, and it stuck with me. I, a deeply isolated and emotionally unattached person, was able to let people in because of you. Every February 5th, I know I know, I would reread the story. I guess the tradition is broken, but nothing lasts forever. Thank you for teaching me love is worth risking for. I hope you're well and live well Asahi, thank you.

asahi_saisei

thank you for your kind words, it means a lot to me to hear that i had a positive impact on you. i’m so sorry i took away something meaningful to you, if there was a way i could get it back, i would. i’m not great, but i’m doing better than i was a few months ago. my best wishes to you
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asahi_saisei

this message may be offensive 
hey to the couple of people this might concern. a few weeks ago i went and unpublished all of my stories. tbh, i thought i had deleted my account, but ig it restores it when you log back in. idk. anyways, i logged back in tonight and was surprised to see comments on my message board.  
          
          long story short, i haven’t been doing well mentally and made the stupid decision to delete years worth of personal journals and fanfiction that were stored on here. i was and still am ashamed of myself, and the things i wrote. but i saw the messages and felt bad, so i was going to republish them. unfortunately, it looks like wattpad doesn’t restore deleted works. the only story i didn’t delete was the halfway house, so ill republish it for now (though frankly, i cant stand to read it and have many problems with it with now that im older). but it looks like beautiful liar and whatever else i had published are gone forever. so to anyone who might’ve cared about that, i sincerely apologize. for this and all the melodrama. but, well, i hope my cringy bullshit gave you guys some enjoyment while it was up.

cheriiessz

PLEASE PUT BEAUTIFUL LIRA BACK ON I’m BEGGING I DIDNT FINISH AND ITS A MASTERPIECE SO FAR!!

LunaDaMoona1810

It’s ending was really well done it ended with you dying and writing a letter to Near saying light was Kira and never doubt L letting Near know that every case L took on he solved in a beautiful way. There was some other stuff but I read the book awhile ago. Hope this helps for some closure
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