asce_0

Hello po 

I stumbled upon your story po sa recommendation, at di po ako nagsisisi to give it a read. HAHAHAHAHAHA tawang tawa ako sa scenes ng mga unggoy, naiinis din minsan sa ugali ni Maki pero g na lang kasi cool naman sha. I hope that you'll make more stories in the near future, Miss. D2 lang ako bilang taga support 

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One thing kung bakit pakiramdam niya dapat maging thankful siya at all times is because sinasabi ng mga tao sa paligid niya na, "She should be thankful and appreciative sa mga bagay na mayroon siya ngayon". 
          
          Kaya't pilit niyang binabaon ang mga salitang "Nahihirapan na ako" at "napapagod na rin ako", kasi parang she don't have the reasons to feel that way. 
          
          To be honest, palagi naman niya talagang ginagawa ang best niya, she's trying to be more responsible, and she's trying to be accountable at most time. 
          
          She thought by learning how to be mature will get rid of the exhaustion she's been feeling all through her life. 
          
          Mali pala. Nakatago lang. Then ngayon pilit nagre-resurface. Natatakot siya. 
          
          Natatakot siya what if kalagitnaan she lose herself in the process? Or the people around her?
          
          What if she's running out of gas?

Now it's choking her, disabling her to speak; to breath. 
          
          Sabi niya, she's thankful for all the blessings she received. Mayroon siya noong mga bagay na wala ang iba. Mayroon siyang opportunities. 
          
          Kaya naiisip niya na, "ano bang mali?"
          May dapat pa ba siyang karapatan na mahirapan when in the first place, mukhang mas maayos naman ang kalagayan niya kumpara sa iba. 
          
          Hindi ba dapat makuntento siya? 
          Hindi ba siya appreciative?
          Mali ba na maramdaman niya 'yon?
          
          Baka totoong reklamador siya or she's just too weak?
          

It's kinda sad lang 'cause she's smiling a lot, laughs a lot, jokes a lot, and loves to make fun. Until... She's been bottling all her emotions naman pala. She said, she didn't know what was going on, but that's a lie. She knows. She always does. She's just too optimistic to the point that it digs up her own grave. 
          
          She also shares that, she's starting to feel the pain, and weariness. And now she's too scared about it, because it feels like it's her own ghost.   She thought she could run away with it, and she's wrong. Her mind is in a chaos, her heart feels the constant exhaustion. 
          
          She's dying (metaphorically and she's too scared about it) But the question is, what choice does she have?
          
          She chose it in the first place. 
          She tolerated it.
          She accepted it. 
          She swallowed it. All of it. 

Yo, folks!
          
          It's been awhile, huh? 
          
          I don't know why bumati pa ako, it seems naman na once here na rin since matagal na ako hindi nagsusulat. Wala lang, trip ko lang magsulat dito. Tinatamad ako gumawa ng another account sa X. (Kakaiba kasi ang algorithm sa X, and personally, I don't like it at all). 
          
          Since no one's around here, dito na lang ako tatambay. But I don't know, baka hindi rin since busy ako sa buhay ko kahit wala namang kabuluhan. 
          
          Anyway, kaya lang naman ako nandito kasi nga gusto ko lang magsulat. Wala naman masama sa gano'n. Kekeke! Account ko naman 'to. 
          
          I have chika talaga, there's one girl na kilala ko. As in I've known her for decades na. (...or so I thought?) Her life has never been easy for her (well, sino ba naman kasi ang may madaling life?) She went through a lot, from constant pressure, that leads to disappointments, then overthinking. Non-stop. Non-stop. I guess, that girl, hindi na 'yon siya makatulog, or maybe, kaya naman niya matulog but it seems not enough. 8 hours, 12 hours, 24 hours? I don't know if it's enough for her. 
          
          
          

Magkakaroon pi ng last special chapter ang MHC-007: KARMA, kasi may isang reader na nag-request. Nux! 
          
          I will upload it na lang po soon...
          
          Maraming-maraming salamat po sa reads, sa votes, at sa comments. 
          
          - Asce_0

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Hello!
          
          So another thing pala, siguro need ko rin sabihin. AHAHHA! Truth to be told, iniisip ko pa rin 'yong naging epilogue. Nag-ooverthink ako.  
          
          May comments kasi (though hindi ko siya tini-take negatively, pero baka may future readers na i-drop na lang din ang story 'cause magulo nga raw ang Epilogue). I'm seeking for other readers' comments pa, guys. 
          
          Bale, ito naman ay considered as draft pa naman kaya binibigyan ko pa ng chance ang sarili ko.  
          
          Ang problema ko lang ngayon, wala na ulit sa akin ang laptop ko. Doon kasi ako gumagawa, at nage-edit, eh. Kaya iniisip ko, paano ko siya maaayos ngayon. 
          
          But still, hinahanapan ko naman ng paraan talaga. 
          
          Ayon lang. 
          
          Salamat sa patuloy na pagbabasa at sa votes. 
          
          - Asce_0