Writers have different aspects of writing. The one's who wanted to be famous. Some are writing because they wanted to share what they experienced, good or bad. And as for me, I write the people and things that I wanted to have in my life. Other people asked me why I write even though I can tell them how I feel, all my problems, all my mistakes, all my frustrations. You see, when you write you don't see the rain as rain, you don't see waves as waves, you don't see the sun as a sun.

Instead you slowly watch the rain fall down knowing the sky was crying with you. You see the waves slowly crashing down into you and slap you with all the mistakes that you have made. You see the sun as another day and things ended that quickly. You dive in the depths of it and see things even if you don't know how to swim. You'll find a new and better universe through the unfilled pages of a book, you can write your own story. How you wanted to change the things that ended right in front of you. Change the endings that made your world collapse and become an empty void of darkness and misery.

I don't have to pretend that things are always so good and they always go through my plan of living my life. I don't have to be afraid of letting go of all the emotions that was once hidden in the back of my heart. I don't have to make myself be perfect in front of everyone, instead show them the broken pieces of me that I am carrying in my own hands. I don't have to stop myself from sheading these unshed tears.

I write because I am bursting all these frustrations. I could pretend that it was me who said goodbye first so it was them who was aching. I write so I can feel how it is to be brave to just leave all the memories that was once there and pretend that it meant nothing. I can change my story even if I was the only one who is seeing my own rearrangement and helping myself stand up through all the things that was weighing me down.

I can be loved by someone who doesn't love me.