❤ Ashy Ashes ❤

You know, as a New Zealander - I guess I can say with confidence that a lot of the movies that were filmed here and the stories are set here, are infamous for being sad. I mean, look at "Once Were Warriors." Look at "The Whale Rider." Look at "Tina." And speaking of which, the last film was something my family and I went to go watch at the cinemas and though I refuse to give out any spoilers, one of the opening scenes was so dark and tragic that it had me literally sobbing in the theatres. Now that it's streaming on Netflix in my country, it still continues to strike bone-deep and have me blubbering like a baby.

I'm not entirely sure why I'm writing this, but I guess right now is just one of those moments. I feel like nothing I'm doing matters or counts, in any way shape or form. I know what everyone else is gonna say, and even though I'm torn between thinking I'm ungrateful or I'm not, I'm tired of hearing what I'm used to hearing. It starts losing some of its meaning, you know..? I can't tell whether I'm getting better or worse and writing is the only thing that's keeping me from going over the edge of just losing motivation to do absolutely anything. I apologize for the random post, but I just felt like I needed to get at least some of this pressure that's growing on my chest.

Hellos,, simply reaching out to say your writing is PHENOMENAL and I love your work, please never explode <333

Alright I feel like I need to rant. 
          
          So a little while back, I stumbled across this book that was practically just made up of these... suggestive photos and stories written and told by the creator, and from what I could tell, this user appeared to be very underage, 15 or something if I remember correctly. I know the laws in the UK are drastically different to those in the US or just any other place in the world. I live in NZ, and the age of consent is 16. I'm 17, but any and all details of my personal life are personal for a reason and I would never go around sharing any information to people online, that could potentiallly put me at risk of being gr**med or m*lested, but this person was underage and she was putting up selfies of herself in bikinis and skimpy clothing. She had other girls included in the photos (who I assume to be her friends) but she thankfully had their faces scribbled out, so I guess she had some common sense before posting them. And before anyone comes at my throat for saying that, I just want to make it clear that this girl DID know what she was doing, and she was fully aware of what she was posting. The kinds of people I spotted in her comments were also very concerning and the only reason I bring this up is because I'm worried about the future of Wattpad. This is the area where me and other writers alike, should feel safe in creating their works, but with the DM feature having been terminated, I feel like we could be at danger of losing our work for good, due to people posting things like this. Now I won't expose this person, because I don't know her personal life, nor her struggles and hardships, and I'm not the kind of person to apply to that kind of pressure. But I'm also worried about underage users posting stuff like that to the platform, and putting themselves at risk of being sexually manipulated online. It's troubling. Anyway, sorry for the random rant, I just needed to get this off my chest.

Alondra's immediate, blood-related family because why not?
          
          Alondra Valley/Marsden
          Will Marsden (Older brother)
          Vanessa-Crimson Marsden (Mother)
          Malakai Marsden (Father)

Hello guys, I didn't think I'd be making one of these so soon, but I'm just gonna make a quick update on my mental state and that will affect my posting schedule. My mental state isn't the best right now and neither is my beloved wife's. (my girlfriend) But that's all personal stuff. What matters right now is that my updates will probably come really slow, so to those who are anticipating my very next chapter for a work or something, I ask you to please be patient. It's hard to push through with author's burnout and author's writer's block, but I'm not gonna let you guys down. I'm gonna try to make the best of my free time. It's just I've got a lot of exams and school-related stuff going on. And I just wanna say a quick thank you to those who've been supporting my works. You all mean the world to me and thank you all for being patient.

I'm in the middle of writing some angst while also home alone during my sick day... or night, I guess I should say.

Thanks for the follow. I appreciate it ❤

Again, updates are becoming slow but I'm not entirely to blame. School's starting back up again next week, and I'm only partially anticipating it. School can be fun when it wants to be. I don't know, I've just been in a low mood these past couple days and I've been feeling extra unmotivated to do a lot of writing, which I know will come back to bite me in the arse.

Hey guys, so a lot's happened. I'm not sure how to feel about my post schedule, because I haven't done any updates since April, I think? I'm feeling unmotivated when it comes to making art and my writing is becoming pretty slow. I've got a Dating Darby Pierce, in the works but I'm not feeling motivated to get that soon so I'm not sure when or if that'll ever be done. I'm experiencing some burn-out.