aspence101

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Well today has started ok then it drifted Zac and I are always arguing and when we aren't mad we are fucking. the emotion isn't really there anymore. It's depressing cause I love him but I'm not in love with him. Shit just gets harder and harder between it feels as the only way to feel something is to piss each other off. I hate that I love him so much that after I get hurt by him, I'm still scared to leave him...
          	I honestly don't know what to do anymore cause I feel that I need him and I fight so fucking hard to receive nothing in return. It's like drowning and swimming to the top but no matter how close you think you get to the surface your still no where near where you want to be. We used to be so close inseparable even but now it's like the thought of looking at each other just leaves a bitter taste in our mouths, but yet we always come back together trying to rekindle the past but it's pointless

aspence101

this message may be offensive 
Well today has started ok then it drifted Zac and I are always arguing and when we aren't mad we are fucking. the emotion isn't really there anymore. It's depressing cause I love him but I'm not in love with him. Shit just gets harder and harder between it feels as the only way to feel something is to piss each other off. I hate that I love him so much that after I get hurt by him, I'm still scared to leave him...
          I honestly don't know what to do anymore cause I feel that I need him and I fight so fucking hard to receive nothing in return. It's like drowning and swimming to the top but no matter how close you think you get to the surface your still no where near where you want to be. We used to be so close inseparable even but now it's like the thought of looking at each other just leaves a bitter taste in our mouths, but yet we always come back together trying to rekindle the past but it's pointless