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Patiently waiting my fav stories to be updated cz all my fav authors are busy af:( 

I'm slowly losing interest in things that I once love doing. Now I'm really tired for everything. Is this some kind of illness or just a phase? Cz in even getting tired of me getting tired of everything. That's pretty annoying:')

Hey!
          So, um it's been a while huh 
          My mental health didn't change much. It's just now people really annoy me. Even when they do basic things such as talking, breathing, writing, etc. I basically push everybody away and let me say when I'm alone it makes me so much happier. I finally feel the peacefulness I've always wanted to.
          My grandma's health is kinda bad. I think she's got covid. Tomorrow she is going to give a test. So I hope she will be alright.
          I really miss my brother tbh. I feel the need to be with him rn. I cannot wait until I can hug him again.
          My TOEFL exam is going to be this or next month. Tbh I'm really scared but only of reading section. That's my weak point. You cannot imagine how much I want to get into my dream uni. I kinda have a back up plan but I really don't like the second uni I would go if anything goes not by my plans.
          Also I have big plans to move to Canada. After finishing my studies with uni I'm going there.
          So yeah this was it. I know I may annoy too much but this place is just where I sometimes like to express myself.
          Take care, don't skip meals, take mental health day off and rest. I love you

A small update from my life as if anybody is gonna read this. Anyways... I failed my SAT exam. I got 530/800. Yeah I know I know, I'm a big disappointment. But the good news is that the faculty which I want to go doesn't require an SAT exam. Now I'm working hard on my TOEFL. If I fail this one also you surely won't hear from me anymore. 
          Other piece of news is that war in my country is currently stopped and I hope it will be this way for a long time. My brother is a soldier also and you won't imagine how much it was for me to take in while he was fighting there.
          Anyways I actually lived up until this day. I'm amazed that I'm so strong that I didn't kill myself wow.
          Another good piece of news is that my braces are actually helping my teeth to get better and I see positive changes every day:D
          Whoever reads this pls take care, eat well, wear a mask, study well, sleep tight. I love you and I'm proud of you<3

I have a question, if I may ask. Why did you put "I'm so sad"? Are you always sad?

A little about myself~
          Hello dear reader. I'm a teenager girl who is getting ready for her upcoming exams. I want to attend one of the best university in my country. My brother studied there too. So I want to make my family proud and study there too. He got his SAT exam's score 780/800 and I wish I can get at least 600. I'm really trying my best to not be a disappointment. I have maths and English tutors because I have SAT and TOEFL exams. I'm working hard 24/7, eating as healthy as I can, sleeping as much as I can. Please don't make me feel like I'm a loner or a loser. My classmates hate me due of my sexuality, being non religious. I try to comfort people but who knows maybe one day I will be gone like them too:) I have many insecurities: my height, my weight, my teeth, my fingers, my nose. I'm working on loving myself every day but I'm slowly giving up.
          Take care please, love yourself and be healthy. Thank you for reading. I love you<3

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