Feathers:
Its not that im fat.Its just that im not skinny eithir. It the fact the i feel like a victum of my body and its holding me back. I want to be able to fall and not worry if in to heavey to be caught i want to be able to fly and not fear the my weight will keep me on the ground. i want to be able to wear whatever i want and not feel like im going to ooz with fat. i want to be confident and not self concious . I just want to be beautiful. And they say being to skinny isnt becautiful but i just i want to be so thin that i never have to wory about being fat again. I dont want skinny for the models, for the boys for the atention . i want skinny for me becuase loving myself should not a qestion in my life an i feel that if i was skinny i could fully love who i m rather than hate that im not who i want to be. And people says once you become a victum of your self you will never be truley satisied with the way you look and i get that. but id rather never be satisied and trying than be satisfied with not. i just want to be thin and i dont want to eat. i want to be free flowing and beautiful like feathers.
