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guys im bored, you guys can request manips to me
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im a muslim but i realized im bisex, i like my friend who is also a bisex. We talk about many things, including lgbtq that are really private since we're both muslims.
I really thought i had a chance with her but she said im not her type. Tbh i was lowkey heartbroken by her words but thought it means nothing until yesterday i found out she has a crush on a guy, and i was planning on confessing to her.
Now i feel more guilty bc im hurt by the rejection, cause she lives way a worse household. Forcing her to like me just makes me a bad person.
I don't even know what to do, she likes someone, we both live in a homophobic household and I hate the fact that she relies on me, I swear im the worst person to exist in life because sometimes im jealous that she has other bestfriends.
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@ astraalyns Lovely Astra I may not know you but as a Muslim who is straight, my view will not change about you. I accept you still as a person and I hope you will move out of the toxicity in your household. LGBTQIA+ topic in Islam is okay to talk about, it isn't taboo at all.
I wish you well a lot of health from your heartbreak and it must be horrible of this especially finding out about your friend that she has a crush on a guy.
From what you wrote and said, you aren't a bad person, you're a person who is living in a toxic household and have a best friend you love that has feelings for someone else.
Jealousy is a normal yet negative feeling we all feel and at the end of the day, no matter how jealous you feel, it doesn't make you a bad person as long as you don't harm her mentally nor physically or even verbally.
It also didn't sound like forcing to me, you are just very hurt and living under difficult circumstances.
You deserve to be cared, loved and a lot of acceptance that you cannot control mentally and emotionally what you feel and you deserve better people than your own family and so does your best friend's parents.
I hope you both will gain hope someday even acceptance, understanding and love.
It doesn't change how I view about you Astra, even if we don't talk a lot.
I still wish you a lot of care
astraalyns
im gonna come out here
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ASTRA, DO U HAVE DISC
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guys if u wanna talk to me, then go follow my rl acc @rovdrick cause im gonna sell my astraalyns acc
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guys choose
- Zhang lurang x fem! oc and Su zaizai x male! oc
- Duan jiaxu x fem! oc
astraalyns
guys i wanna make another cdrama ficcuhhhhh
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do u guys want cortisx oc canon au fic or highschool au
astraalyns
thinking of making cdrama fic where my oc is a foreign kpop idol..what who said that
heartforecasts
@astraalyns yeah u could still do that since quite a few kpop idols r Chinese or some other ethnicity
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hi