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thanks for following me <3

━━ SPREADING A LIL’ MESSAGE ! (❁ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈)
          hi elene! i just wanna say that you are amazing! if you ever feel stuck in life just please please remember that things will get better! nothing ever lasts forever! and if you’re ever feeling down, remember this, you!!! are!!! loved!!! i know that sometimes it may not seem like it, but you truly truly are! and if you ever need to talk to me, please do! i’ll try to reply as soon as i can!! i love u bb! <3

— july 20, 2019
          
          ❝ it’s currently 1:33 in the morning and i hauled myself out of bed to go film a video for a friend in the bathroom. i’m exhausted and i’m so tired from my trip to the mall earlier but i got new clothes so it’s okay. also i changed my biography && story infos && header again. i’m too lazy to change the story covers but i probably will sooner or later. might just add the title on there but at the same time i kind of don’t want to do that, so i probably won’t.
          
          my birthday is in a few days, and i have the next three chapters of psycho already written. speaking of psycho, psycho by my king baekhyun is a whole bop and no one can convince me otherwise. i won’t be that active from aug. 4 to aug. 16 due to me going to a summer math camp with my friends, but i’ll still post occasionally.
          
          also, i’m keeping the dark theme, just adding sum new details and aesthetic vibes to the bios. dont worry. i switched from a light, floral theme to a beige / tan theme to a grunge && edgy && dark theme, whoops.
          
          anyways, that’s all for this morning, i guess.
          
          have a good time of ur life (stan day6 and stream time of our lives!! i wanna see them in concert so bad.) 
          
          ❞

— july 15, 2019
          
           i got locked out of my wattpad account for the seventh time during the amount of time i’ve had this account and i was screaming in the dark of my room—
          
          on the other hand my birthday is in eight days ! :D lowkey excited but at the same time not really oops—

— july 10, 2019: 00:22 
          
          ☽ also happy international birthday to one of my ateez biases, choi san. he has the constellations dancing across his neck, and he has the universe in the way his eyes glitter in the light. i can see the reflections in the clear view of them, and i can see beauty every time i look in his direction.
          
          he may be a man who does not know of my existence, but he has a special place in my heart. the energy he has when he dances fluidly, the aura and the intense gazes as he switches to his stage persona. he has one of the best stage presences i’ve seen, all of ATEEZ do, and it’s insane how they’re only rookies.
          
          choi san, i luv you, even if you don’t know of my existence. i’m so proud of you + the rest of ateez for coming so far && being so talented. your vocals leave me breathless and in awe, it just makes me happy seeing what you can accomplish in the future.
          
          i luv u. i hope your story ends with a happy
          epilogue, cause it’s the ending you deserve
          the most my dear<3 

— july 09, 2019
          
          ₊˚.༄ i’m on a call with my cousin and we’re pulling an all-nighter so expect like a bunch of changes cause my insomniac + mentally unstable self can’t decide what i like.. i’m also reorganizing my entire phone too, so i might publish some of the other books i had in the works too, ehehe.
          
          stay tuned for more, possibly not now but soon lmao-
          

— (july 09, 2019) 
          
          hey, my mental health is steadily declining and i probably won’t be able to update for a few weeks... if i can get an update out it’s probably the cause of me forcing myself to type it, oop.
          
          sorry for the inconvenience and in advance sksk, i know i’m a mess 24/7 and a complete failure yikes. plus there’s so much personal shit happening it sucks, oops. 
          
          - e

“ hearts awakened. ”
                   “ live alive. ”
          
          stray kids and ateez are just fighting for my ult group #1 spot but they can both have it<3 also i changed my user name like three times but i didn’t like any so then i kept it the same. 
          
          anyways, i have insomnia and after a full school year of me being unproductive, lazy, and sleeping all the time i can’t sleep anymore. this has been a problem since elementary school, yikes. 
          
          anyways.
          
          “hakuna matata yuh.”
          - <3 -
          “stray kids nine or none we’re gonna cross the finish line.” 

just your local insomniac poppin’ in to say hi. hi hello.

JUNE TWENTIETH, TWENTY NINETEEN.
          
          ↬ it is currently 23:18 pm, pdt, and i am wide awake. i have 9 books in the works, 16 drafts saved for my poetry/writing dump book i’ve had in the works (oup, srry for being repetitive) since i started my account.
          
          also, i changed my username cuz why not, so thanks to my friend for helping me choose one, luc u lots, u kewl kid. <3 
          
          idk which story to post first, oop. i have an nct fic, a poetry book, and the edited version of underneath these scarred wrists ready but at the same time i don’t want to publish them yet? sksks, it’s a hard time for me. 
          
          srry for the long waits oup.
          
          much luv,
          urs truly.