jade

i haven't been here since 2017 what's up y'all

hello 

hi .... I'm alive i think?
          anyways i've been avoiding a lot of my interests and things like that simple because most of it doesn't even make me happy anymore. as much as i want to feel something- i don't. but I'm going to try and continue this wattpad thing. its keeps my brain occupied, you know? 
          ill try and continue my book and keep my brain diary updated. thanks  y'all
          
          stay safe <3

I'm actually fucking mad idk whats happening.
          update: 1. drive is on hold.. (eek sorry) i mean its terrible i just wanna fix it up a lil bit uno.
          2. ive started another book oh joy. it will probably be bad to oops 
          3. lol if i know u irl gtfo my page this is my safe place
          4. that was harsh sorry lol but if i do know you irl, please don't talk to me about my writing or books as i am v insecure and hate myself...thanx
          Ok thank y'all for reading this lil update! ily all and stay safe <3

So i know that i have been away for a v v long time but i have a good reason ok. Right now im in hospital and i have been for a while now. I think im getting better but idk yet. Thats all i wanted to say really, stay safe.

Wow I was just called to the school councillor. Is it really that obvious. She thought that I was 'battling with feelings that I don't want to say out loud'. What the fuck?

I actually think I’m going insane I don’t know who I am anymore. But obviously I'm going to act fine to everyone around me. I'll just slowly break down until I finally crack.

hope ur all doing well

hey, hows life? i got dodie's new ep and its incredible! i have been listening to sick of losing sloumates and when all freaking day. if you want new music to listen to then i recommend it 100%. plus, tonight I'm going to watch fantastic beasts, i haven't been to the cinema in so long. anyway, ill cya later. byeee

Almost finished the next chapter of Drive :)