[not a vent btw. i kinda just wanted to make this clear. i’m not mad or sad or anything. i’m feeling pretty good, actually.]
when i say someone is so good and i wish i could be like them, i’m not jealous or envious.
although i know how extremely average i am in everything (smart but not extremely, good at art but not excellent, play piano but not really advanced (even after like 8 years… oh well, i can learn), can act and sing somewhat but not excellently, can write stuff but not well, can do some sports but not much, friendly but not warm, looks nice but not pretty, etc).
but i don’t care.
i don’t mind at all.
it’s not a topic of pain or sadness to me.
i don’t give it much thought.
+ if there are more people smarter than me that means there are more people i can copy off in tests. i’m *benefitting* from this. think on the positive side, people.
i didnt announce this cause i dont care who sees it