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whoo that felt good. it’s okay i’m better now.

my dad’s disappointed in me my mom probably is too even if she doesn’t say it. god i’m disgusting. why can’t i be better why can’t i do better why can’t i just be normal again. i used to be able to do this. how long has it been since i brushed my teeth. one month? two months? longer? idk. i shower and i change my clothes and i even change my sheets often enough. well fuck idk if i do i went like three months without changing them last time and they felt like they had crumbs in there and i slept in there anyway. please i feel like i’m going to break.

always the dumbest things that make me spiral like this like ohhhhh you played an arcade game  your cousin played it later  ohhh you should just die you clearly have no purpose 

i know this because i spent all day wearing a pair of women's jeans and when i got home i felt like i was going to Die