aurinkonousee

Btw i need help w coming up w a new username😭😭

Should I publish ALL my adaw drafts for funsies?? 🤣🤣
          Most are pretty bad and def very draft like but if idk if anyone would ever read them anyways
          It would include spoilers for whatever I planned abt for the book

I wish I had the time and inspiration to write😭
          I'm in my final year in Finnish "highschool" rn
          (The school system is jst so different that i won't bother to explain further lol)
          And i started in a more difficult class in ballet so I don't have the time for writing 
          School just started last month and I'm already drowning in ballet classes and school work i'm too exhausted to think about writing
          
          Alsooo... about adaw I got stuck in my own plot lol
          I just plan stories but never write them out it was also a little illlogical and boring

Another episode of i hate wp and my phone 
          I got inspiration for another story yesterday and wrote abt 400 words ik it's not much but anyways 
          Accidentally pressed delete and of course then my phone lagged and it's all gone -_-

Y'all I'm trying to write smth and I need help 
          Which idol is the most likely to go to a book store?

@TheyellowBbokkari ugh wattpad </3

wattpad is being a total jerk. i have no idea if my replies in the comments even went through lol

I underestimated the amount of world building and planning I need to do T-T
          Why did I have to create a magical fantasy world w superpowers, royal families and magical creatures?
          
          I have rn like 45 characters planned and I need some more T-T well some of them are from passed generations or for other reasons don't exist anymore but as my story includes royal families I need characters as siblings, cousins, aunts, uncles, parents, grandparents and many of these characters also need their loved ones for it to be realistic :| 
          Rn I have 4 unfinished familytrees, 11 A5 sized pages of notes for the superpowers and one magical creature
          Fantastic only the superpowers are finalised this is gonna take a whileeee T-T

This might be controversial 
          But as kpop fans do we realise what's just fan service and what's real?
          Kpop idols are trained to do what they do and it's their job
          
          How can we be so sure that they're the people they say that they are? How can we be so sure that the members really love each other as family? How can we say that all the ships are real and not preplanned by the marketing team?
          
          Of course some things are real but kpop idols are great actors 
          And by time people do get closer 
          But still in the end they're just humans 
          They fight and have misunderstandings
          
          Lastly there's something I'm sure of, the k-industry breaks people 
          The pressure, ruthless judgement, the fear of getting dropped out and the fear of disappointing others
          Many of the idols who were trainees for a long time seem to doubt themselves and be insecure 
          That's not surprising when you learn what trainees go through 
          
          Are we just blindly following kpop groups and walking into the trap of people who just want money? 
          Are we supporting groups or a toxic industry?
          
          I hope that I made you think a little deeper

The introductions and the first chapter of adaw are back up again! The rest will be published when I've sorted the plot and rewritten a few parts. 
          (In the introductions there's also my failed drawing lol)