austrxlians

just an update
          	
          	i took a step back from the fanfiction community a few months ago, and while i hate to admit it, i've become much, much happier having done so. i needed to reevaluate what was important to me (online, and IRL), and while i cant say i’m at my best, i’m certainly doing better than i was a few months ago. i was struggling a lot for a multitude of reasons, but one of which was that wattpad was no longer a safe space for me. i was no longer able to escape the problems in my real life, and while it sounds stupid having typed this out, it felt like i was at my breaking point and had nowhere to run
          	
          	my close friends can attest, but i have always been my harshest critic. it got to a point where nothing i was creating felt good enough, and my insecurities only grew stronger when WHSM seemingly blew up overnight. please don’t get me wrong, i am so, SO incredibly grateful for what my followers/readers have given me, but i just hope you can empathise when i say that, at some point, it became impossible for me to differentiate passion and obligation when my 'popularity' grew. i felt horrible and like a fraud for being unable to write when that’s the path i laid out for myself. i felt like i was constantly letting my readers down and it felt easier to wallow in shame than to try and pull myself out of my rut
          	
          	i miss writing more than you could ever know. i miss being proud of my ideas and being able to connect with people who are equally as passionate about their own. i am tired of exhausting myself when writing should be fun. i’m tired of seeing wattpad and feeling an immense sense of dread because i’ve convinced myself nothing i do is worthy of being seen by people. i want to be better and get back to writing, if not for my current self, than for the 11 year old version of me who fell in love with stranger things in the first place. i’ve poured my blood, sweat, and tears into my works and it’s about time i start thinking about ‘austrxlians’ in a better light

xonceuponatimex

@austrxlians sending you all the love and good vibes <3
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amorouslykismet

hi! you don’t really know me but i js wanted to let you know that you inspired me to post my first fanfiction when fantastic four came out in august. it has been the most fun ive had in my entire life being able to have an creative outlet for my writing impulses. you made it look so fun and i am eternally grateful that you posted Space Oddity because in a strange way i owe everything to you. thank you and i hope you grow to understand how much you are valued within this community and how your talent is a true inspiration :)
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soapyfilms

ali, your work has been such a inspiration since l joined the community, l'm glad you took time away to focus on yourself, you have been truly devoted to your work since l have seen it and l love that about you l wish anything but the best for you, you deserve it <3
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austrxlians

just an update
          
          i took a step back from the fanfiction community a few months ago, and while i hate to admit it, i've become much, much happier having done so. i needed to reevaluate what was important to me (online, and IRL), and while i cant say i’m at my best, i’m certainly doing better than i was a few months ago. i was struggling a lot for a multitude of reasons, but one of which was that wattpad was no longer a safe space for me. i was no longer able to escape the problems in my real life, and while it sounds stupid having typed this out, it felt like i was at my breaking point and had nowhere to run
          
          my close friends can attest, but i have always been my harshest critic. it got to a point where nothing i was creating felt good enough, and my insecurities only grew stronger when WHSM seemingly blew up overnight. please don’t get me wrong, i am so, SO incredibly grateful for what my followers/readers have given me, but i just hope you can empathise when i say that, at some point, it became impossible for me to differentiate passion and obligation when my 'popularity' grew. i felt horrible and like a fraud for being unable to write when that’s the path i laid out for myself. i felt like i was constantly letting my readers down and it felt easier to wallow in shame than to try and pull myself out of my rut
          
          i miss writing more than you could ever know. i miss being proud of my ideas and being able to connect with people who are equally as passionate about their own. i am tired of exhausting myself when writing should be fun. i’m tired of seeing wattpad and feeling an immense sense of dread because i’ve convinced myself nothing i do is worthy of being seen by people. i want to be better and get back to writing, if not for my current self, than for the 11 year old version of me who fell in love with stranger things in the first place. i’ve poured my blood, sweat, and tears into my works and it’s about time i start thinking about ‘austrxlians’ in a better light

xonceuponatimex

@austrxlians sending you all the love and good vibes <3
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amorouslykismet

hi! you don’t really know me but i js wanted to let you know that you inspired me to post my first fanfiction when fantastic four came out in august. it has been the most fun ive had in my entire life being able to have an creative outlet for my writing impulses. you made it look so fun and i am eternally grateful that you posted Space Oddity because in a strange way i owe everything to you. thank you and i hope you grow to understand how much you are valued within this community and how your talent is a true inspiration :)
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soapyfilms

ali, your work has been such a inspiration since l joined the community, l'm glad you took time away to focus on yourself, you have been truly devoted to your work since l have seen it and l love that about you l wish anything but the best for you, you deserve it <3
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austrxlians

welcome back mr harry styles you were very, very missed

stilestastic

@Urmom12346767 whoa this was uncalled for—authors have lives outside of writing
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Urmom12346767

Anything but posting the next part bruh
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anakinluvss

@austrxlians jumping of joy, i can’t wait for his album !!
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austrxlians

seeing chappell roan and role model this wknd…

harringtonssss

@austrxlians 
            you're cool, we're not, we get it
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austrxlians

@stilestastic yess i got barricade at the show he did last year in my city!! im so excited to finally hear the deluxe tracks live !!! (he toured aus like a week before he dropped it :sob:)
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stilestastic

OMGGGG HAVE FUN!!! i saw role model last year and he was a BLAST
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austrxlians

sorry i went MIA yall, just been dealing w some personal stuff the last few weeks
          
          will be posting again soonish :)

luvsnaya

@Urmom12346767 LMFAOOOO WHO ARE YOU
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austrxlians

@Urmom12346767 considering i pay rent, pay electric bills, buy my own groceries, own a car that i paid for… i fear my bank account would say otherwise, Urmom12346767! i also go outside and do things with my friends (unlike you, it would seem), which often requires money to do so. maybe one day you’ll experience what it’s like to have fun with people who like you—don’t give up hope! :)
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Urmom12346767

Stfu we all know ur ass is not employed
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austrxlians

i am bawling. i can’t believe it’s over

Urmom12346767

When is act 2 coming
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sadbeautifultragic

ive been crying all day honestly
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_issaa

the ending was perfect
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austrxlians

steve harrington will survive and his epilogue sequence will be him picking up or dropping off dustin at college.
          
          the last scene will be the main party playing one last game of dnd to parallel the very first scene in the show. MARK MY WORDS!

mytearsricochet19

girl are you psychic?
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poetbenoist

GIRL HOW DID YOU KNOW
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oxangejuice

and you were right!
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