Hey pumpkins,
I just wanted to rant so much.
I don't know what's happening to me... but I feel like I can't do anything. Whatever I try to do, I'm failing. It's so frustrating.
I've only four months left and I'm scared. Literally terrified.
I've no idea what's wrong with me, when I'm going to write the chapter—my mind gets blank like I don't know anything. And trust me, I'm so excited to write the chapters but these days, i feel so demotivated.
Another day wasted completely.
No matter how hard I try, everything fails out of nowhere. Writing was like a calming pill for me but now, I think I can't even focus properly on it.
I'm not QUITTING.
Chapter is ready.. but it's just me who isn't ready.
Kabhi kabhi lagta hai bojh ban gaye hain iss dharti par. Prithvi bhi pata nahi kya soch rahi hongi.. I feel like just giving up but a part of something inside, keeps me on track and always forces me to work, to chase, to practice whatever I've dreamt of.
Only thing I'm proud of myself like I've noticed a lot that is: I never give up. I try, I fail but I don't give up.
This time, I'm so burnout.
Don't know how to cope up with this issue.
I am writing this because I think sharing this with all of you will make me feel at ease. So yeah! Just speaking my heart to y'all.
I know.. ye samay bhi chala jayega. Durga Maiya hain na meri vo humesa rehengi.
Thank you,
Take care of yourself and your loved ones!
With all my love,
Taeilyaa ❤️