Nearly 5 years later and I’m now an adult, I’ve graduated high-school, I’m in university, my life is great.
I won’t deny that I lost myself for a while. After I stopped reading/writing, I got over indulged in my relationship, got introduced into substances, and ultimately lost the small part of me that made my life special.
Me and Adrian are no longer together, in 3 week it would’ve been our 4 year anniversary. But our relationship was eating me alive and I couldn’t bate it any longer. I think I just needed time to learn how to be my own person without relying on another. I can’t get myself to be alright with giving everything I have to someone, because pekple are not permanent you know? I was too comfortable relying on others, it made me grow uncomfortable being alone. A part of me hopes we reconnect in time, once we’ve both truly learned how to be our best selves.
I’m on a path of success, so future me, when you read this (and I know you’ll be back), just know you’re great and nothing anything in this entire universe can do will ever make you less special.
You are beautiful, you are brilliant, you are successful and loving. You know you are the one people gravitate towards because you’re so light and kind, people love you. Don’t be scared, don’t doubt yourself, don’t dwell in your blanket of anxiety. It isn’t comforting you, it’s blinding you.
Life is everything good, it’s only bad if you make it that way. Look for every blessing imaginable, perceive things in a positive way and you’ll soon be living in bliss.
Always and forever remember your past, bake in your present, and live for the future.
