liquid_dio
Hey! I saw in your bio that you're 7 months sober and i wanted to congratulate you! It's hard i know, but still great job! I'm really proud of you
awstens-blue-flop
awstens-blue-flop
I wanna be good enough. I wanna be good enough. I wanna be good enough. I wanna be good enough. I wanna be okay.
tvdlover_j
Like, apparently you are a Directioner, so NOTHING is wrong with u!
Im not even sober for two days, so look: you ARE strong!
It’s okay not to be okay!
Stay strong, we love u, darling <3
awstens-blue-flop
i can honestly say that i have never in my life been more heartbroken. ive lost everything. my parents dont want anyting to do with me, my siblings wont even look at me, and the person i love most in this world doesnt want me anymore. ive got no-one. no friends. no support. i feel like my heart has been frozen and shattered.
liquid_dio
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@ awstens-blue-flop that's so fucked up. I wish i could hug or help you in any way. I'm so sorry you had yo go through this. Your partner was stupid to leave you, i bet you're a great person.
awstens-blue-flop
have I ever told any of you how regularly suicide crosses my mind?
tvdlover_j
you are strong!
Please, keep going, no matter what happens.
I know life gets hard and it gets messed up, when you give so much but it’s not enough, when the high is too high and the low is too low, when you love someone and they let you go… -LT
awstens-blue-flop
It gets easier. But it gets harder first. Eating, sleeping, caring about myself. They're hard. But I find a reason to push through and do it. No matter how much you hurt, no matter how shitty of a day it is, no matter how much you just wanna slash up your limbs and scream. I can always find a reason. The same reason. Its not drugs, alcohol, parties, sex, or family. Its always the same person, for the same reason. I need to sleep.
awstens-blue-flop
Life update; I'm okay. Ive decided to say it until it comes true. Ive got my (hopefully) final court date soon. I love my boyfriend, unconditionally, still. Nights are lonely. I eat regularly now. Though I have to fight the urges to purge and fast and binge. I'm trying to do better. I want to do better. He helps me do better. He makes me feel loved, and wanted, and cherished. He makes me feel ways ive never known. I'm very grateful for him.
dontcareafck
YOU LIVE IN UTAH TOO OMG I'M DYING
awstens-blue-flop
Can I just tell y'all how weird it is to meet your celebrity crush, that you read fanfiction about, and squeal when you meet her and practically maul them in a hug.
I have sO mUcH rEgReT iM sOrRy JoSh!
So yeah like I met With Confidence and they call me Rainbow Girl and I hardcore live Josh Brozzesi and you can fight me about it idc
awstens-blue-flop
I'm eating ranch and bread because, Hi I'm a homsexual
awstens-blue-flop
Uhm so like, can you guys still read my books, because Wattpad seems to have deleted all of them.
