Year 2025 took its share from meāmore than I ever thought I could lose. But honestly, it didnāt start this year. The past few years have been quiet storms I carried longer than I should have. Maybe itās mercy that the breaking point came early, so whateverās left of the years ahead can finally breathe.
Iāve decided I wonāt be using itsmeblackSG anymore. Iāve thought about it a thousand times. That name gave me blessingsāreal opportunities, doors that opened when I didnāt even know I was ready. I honor that. But I also have to be honest with myself about who I am now.
From here on, I write as Aletheia Cypher ā axxcypher. Not to disappear. Not to hide. But to show who I really am, even in something as smallāand as meaningfulāas a name.
Some of my work will carry pieces of what these years have done to meāraw, honest fragments I can share. I write to heal myself because thereās no other way through this.
This isnāt running away. Itās shedding. A name laid down to make space for becoming. Some endings donāt need noise or explanationājust quiet truth and the resolve to face it.
I pray for distanceānot just of place, but of fate. For a life beyond what I can no longer endure. If survival demands burning old ties, then even blood may not be exempt.
Someday, I hope God leads me somewhere silence doesnāt hurt anymore, where every step finally makes sense.
Thank you for reading.
Thank you for walking with me into what comes next.
ā Aletheia Cypher (axxcypher)
