Year 2025 took its share from me—more than I ever thought I could lose. But honestly, it didn’t start this year. The past few years have been quiet storms I carried longer than I should have. Maybe it’s mercy that the breaking point came early, so whatever’s left of the years ahead can finally breathe.
I’ve decided I won’t be using itsmeblackSG anymore. I’ve thought about it a thousand times. That name gave me blessings—real opportunities, doors that opened when I didn’t even know I was ready. I honor that. But I also have to be honest with myself about who I am now.
From here on, I write as Aletheia Cypher — axxcypher. Not to disappear. Not to hide. But to show who I really am, even in something as small—and as meaningful—as a name.
Some of my work will carry pieces of what these years have done to me—raw, honest fragments I can share. I write to heal myself because there’s no other way through this.
This isn’t running away. It’s shedding. A name laid down to make space for becoming. Some endings don’t need noise or explanation—just quiet truth and the resolve to face it.
I pray for distance—not just of place, but of fate. For a life beyond what I can no longer endure. If survival demands burning old ties, then even blood may not be exempt.
Someday, I hope God leads me somewhere silence doesn’t hurt anymore, where every step finally makes sense.
Thank you for reading.
Thank you for walking with me into what comes next.
— Aletheia Cypher (axxcypher)
