meltedayskrim

thank you for all the stories..but it is time for me to leave wattpad as i 'try to 'fix' myself. i have been feeling guilty and corrupted as my readings shifted to the more naughty genre..i am not hating those stories as they are written beautifully despite having some naughty scenes..i just feel the need to rewire my thinking and strengthen my values first..goodbye for now..and again..thank you.

i have always been living my life at my own pace..that is much slower that the norm.. but these days, i have been living in my slowest pace so far.. just trying to merely survive..

surviving 2020 is more than enough achievement for this year
           #isurvived2020

i have this feeling of not wanting to become too much of a burden to my friends when i feel like i want to have a long chat..knowing how busy they are right now..
          a new chat friend would be nice..but then again my last experiernce with friendly chatting did not end that well..so yeah i'll jist wait til that need to talk/chat pass..

fear..
          scared to have the normalcy disturbed..
          fear not of rejection but of change..
          fear of going thru all that hassle again on changing lanes only to be forced back to my original lane.. #tryingtounderstandmyself

finally free from that little nagging guilt feeling ☺️

i am always grateful regardless of its the simplicity or grandeur..and i thought that gratefulness is innate to everyone as being kind..and i refuse to change that belief even if i have seen more and more proof that it is not..

i miss red and green..and dustin and lia..and beau and chas..and many watty pairs..

would you rather choose an easy escape that might lead to a greater pain..or would you just let time takes away the pain not knowing how long it'll take..

..gratitude and love are two things you should never keep to yourself, they should always be shown and spoken..