one of my clearest memories as a 3-8 year old was that i used to get a sudden urge to feel pain. it was the strangest thing, i’d be fine then i’d suddenly feel all restless are wanting to feel /something/, and i used to scratch/pinch/dig my nails into my skin. i remember that i never drew blood or anything, but i always felt better afterward. thinking back on it, it seem really weird to me and i don’t know if that was a universal experience?? i definitely wasn’t depressed or anything so i don’t /think/ i was self harming exactly, was i just a weird kid??