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HELLO-
          just in case you don't remember me HIIIII I'M SAMMYYYY
          AND I'M HERE AFTER A  W H O L E  Y E A R. 
          i have SOOOO MUCHHHH TO TELL Y'ALLLLLL!!!!!
          and since there's so much, I'll let y'all ask me WHATEVER you want. Just updates on my life (if you'd like kzgahsjs )
          i would really, really like to apologize for being so mia for the past year. i have truly been through just so much, and one of the many things that happened in the past year is that i lost the will and motivation to continue writing. believe me, i've tried more than a billion times to come back, but i just couldn't get myself to write anything. i suppose it was just a phase in my life; it played a huge role in my growth process, and i'm so glad that i had the opportunity and this platform to showcase something that i enjoyed doing. and i'm endlessly grateful to all the readers who were with me throughout; who gave me so much love and support. i genuinely don't think i would've been able to be who i am today if it weren't for them. 
          writing was, is and will always be a part of me. i enjoyed it while it lasted.
          now i'm not saying i'll completely leave wattpad LMAOOO 
          i still want to be here and i would absolutely love to talk to y'all! and i'm not gonna delete my stories either, i'll just discontinue them, cause i know there were people who found comfort in my stories (hopefully? hahahshksjsk) 
          ANYWAYS.
          i'll leave the comment section for y'all now. ask me or tell me whatever y'all wish and i'll answer all of it, i promise. 
          for now, i shall take my leave as well!
          it was so great coming back here, it truly feels so good. and i will try to keep coming back here from time to time. 
          i hope to hear from y'all too. i'll see y'all soon! 
          lots of love <333

heyy how are youu??

I MADE 190 Y'ALL •́  ‿ ,•̀
          
          ik it's not a big number, but whatever it is, i am extremely grateful for it. and i also know i've been completely off the face of the earth cause class 12 has been a royal pain in my ass and my boards start tomorrow so there's no chance of coming back any time soon. 
          HOWEVER i have long gaps in my schedule so I might MIGHT just get some motivation and get some work done LET'S HOPE. 
          but for now, wish me luck!!! and also, all the best to everyone giving their exams, BREAK A LEG PEOPLE!! YOU GOT THIS!! 
          
          ANYWAYS 
          i hope you're all doing well and are safe <3 please be safe and take care of yourselves. 
          
          I'LL BE BACK SOON YA LIL SHITS I LOVE YOU BYEEEE ❤️

i'm so close to 200, how did this happen-
          :')

hate to sound like a bitch rn but a lot of people follow someone and immediately unfollow them. and that really pisses me off. I'm sorry but if you're only expecting a follow back when you follow someone, that's not right. i mostly follow my favourite writers, friends and sometimes fellow readers whom I've had interactions with. 
          it has taken me a long time to reach here and it's just disappointing to see that I keep losing followers when i'm trying to build my account. i understand if you don't want anything to do with the account anymore, that's okay. and i know it's not just me who faces this, there are so many other writers who hope yo build a platform but keep losing followers just because they didn't follow them back. i'm calling them out for this cause it just ain't cool.

hey y'all!! how's everyone doing??
          i'm so sorry for being mia, things have been really blehhh but i'm feeling sane and stable after a long long time so I'm gonna be back here for real.
          i came here yesterday to just check out what's up and saw that there were loads of notifications from guns and roses, and you know what? i was really really very happy, because just until last year, I had given up on that book but I couldn't get myself to delete it entirely cause it was my first book ever. but seeing that people are here and people are reading it, I thought "hey, maybe continuing it won't be such a bad idea!" soooo i'm gonna start working on gnr again, bring it back to life lmaooo
          i think i'm gonna take a break from our summer for now (i couldn't delete that, it's my beloved book y'all), cause it was getting a little angsty and i don't think i can deal with angst atm, so I'll be focusing on gnr, which is kinda on the more comedic side, albeit based on criminal themes lol
          but i promise to bring our summer back once i'm ready for it, and i promise i'll make it worth the long wait. 
          i also wanna thank all the readers who have been so supportive and patient. i was going through y'all's comments yesterday and i just couldn't stop thinking about how absolutely kind y'all are. i'm just really very grateful for each one of you. thank you for being here. i appreciate you, and i love you. 
          please take care of yourselves and remember to be kind to yourself and everyone around you. 
          <3

y'all i got my vaccine today and my left arm hurts ass. I'm actually terrified of injections but the vaccine part wasn't that painful, but as you know, the side effects start kicking in a little later and now I feel it :D

on a completely different note, i hope to update soon, despite my exams coming up (not that I give a damn about them anyways lmao)!! 
          see y'all soon!

hey, y'all...
          um,, tbh i don't really know what to say right now. 
          first of all, i really hope you have all been keeping well. i really missed y'all. 
          
          second. I'm not gonna lie, my life's pretty much been sucky since dec, 2021. i didn't exactly have a marvellous new year for a bunch of reasons. one of them being, i lost two of my best friends last year (they're not dead y'all-) for reasons that i won't get into rn. another reason is that my mental health has been in a dark ass pit for a very long time now. tbh, it's like the sad hours fluctuate. one minute I'm happy, the next minute I'm having a bloody mental breakdown. and i just...idk what to do with myself. [tw] at times i consider completely erasing myself from the face of the earth but then i stop and think, "it's really not worth it." i'm not here to collect sympathy from you all, so please don't think that way. 
          at the beginning of the year, i deleted wattpad from my phone. decided to stay away from it for a while. ig it helped idrk. I've lost motivation to do absolutely anything, much less continue my stories, for that matter. i just...have no idea what to do anymore. I've considered therapy, but i won't go just yet because I've to start preparing for my exams. very soon, i'll be out of school, and looking for colleges. and i'm just so scared that I've missed out on so many things...idk...
          i just want to get out of this hellhole. and ik i'm not alone in this world, ofc i'm not. but it just gets really lonely at times. and this is one place where i could pour my thoughts into, so i think i want to continue doing that. i want to stay here, and i want to get better. after all, this too shall pass, right? i know it will. [contd.]

A very happy new year to all of you! 
          May this year bring you tons of happiness, peace and success. I hope that all of you achieve everything that you've been working hard for. 
          I'm very grateful for all the friends I've made here in the past year. Thank you for simply being here. I love each of you. 
          
          Here's to making more amazing friends and even more amazing memories! 
          ❤️❤️