Writer is safer, somehow, because my pen cannot stutter like lips do, and words get stuck in throats, not fingertips.

I want to be like water. I want to slip through fingers, but hold up ships.

Many people, myself among them, feel better at the mere sight of a book.

I think it happens to everyone - when they grow up. We figure out who we want to be and want we want to do, and then you realize that no one sees anything the way you do. So, you keep the good parts - the nice memories, and find out you can move on. It's normal.