babiestboykoo

I feel like I’m just surviving now.
          	
          	And I hate it.
          	
          	I have no talents.
          	
          	And no skills.
          	
          	I’m just here eating and breathing.
          	
          	And it hurts to do so.

babiestboykoo

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So my sister Just had another go at me, so twice in around three hours, this one lasted longer and she she’s only been having a go at because she’s trying help me.
          
          I didn’t know trying to help me was by assuming everything I do is because of anger I don’t listen her and that I always say a comment back and than walk away.
          
          I’m not pathetic, she is and it’s getting to hard to ignore.
          
          And she also told me my parents speak about me behind my back because I’m shit at everything and she “defends” me apparently.

babiestboykoo

The reason I don’t have self confidence can be put in to three reasons:
          
          1.The society we live in and the bully’s I grew up having.
          
          2. I hate my body and my self so much that I let my thoughts run wild and not tell anyone and let it break me.
          
          3. My sister who is 22, who also insults me and be littles me and tells me I do that to her, when matter for fact I don’t do it that bad like her. Mine are actual laughable, hers are actually very degrading to the point I don’t wanna be alone with her.
          
          Point proven today when I didn’t want to leave a room we share together and she started call me names and started going down my throat for five minutes practically calling me a child because I just wanted to be in my own room.
          
          She also had a go at me because I went into my own room after doing the dishes, calling me more names on top.
          
          She also said I’m wasting my money when I just bought an album?? But no she can spend her money on like 30 pop dolls and comics and manga and a ticket to wrestling but straight I buy something she goes down my throat saying I’m wasting money after buy one (1) thing.
          
          Also adding I’m trying to get diagnosed for autism and it is really hurtful when some of my family aren’t taking that into consideration that majority of frustration is possibly my autism or something else.
          
          I’m also baby sitting my niece majority of the time so I can’t even go out and if I do I gotta bring with me?? Even if I meet a friend. I’m really suffocating and all the comments about being lazy and petty are making my self confidence plummet when I literally bought up last year.