I haven't felt whole, confident, encouraged, strong or happy in 4 or 5 years had a lot of fights with myself went in a loop of feelings either numb or emotional, I made this account when I was in middle school 8th or 7th grade 16 or 17 yo at the time I planned on having a career of being a self published writer but I had very little motivation except for 1 person who took an interest in my works and inspired me to write more even planned on making my first published book a fantasy tale of our meeting and relationship sadly I never finished it because once I entered highschool our relationship came to a painful abrupt i spent the rest of my school picking my heart off the ground hoping to forget like they wanted me too im now 20 yo and out of highschool and still haven't forgotten, but im slowly trying to start a yt career so I atleast spend my life working on something I want to do, better that then a desk job I hate right? Hopefully I can use it as an outlet even if not to forget then to breathe anew, because since then It feels there name has been the only air in my lungs, I hope they may do the same even if I do long for her return weather in this life or the next, this realm or another I hope you pardon my old dust I left at your door.
