Jay

wassup how's life 

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If none of you cowards Stan got7 what are you doing with your lives
          
          Not by the moon may be the best song released in 2020
          
          DONT SWEAR BY THE MOON

J hope and jimin are my favourites  :3
          

I guess m back?

Jeon Jungkook’s short hair is on the same level as park jimin’s height
          
          Lol fight me

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a freak, or when I just sit and cry and feel so hurt by the world because I can’t really talk to anyone. No one can know the truth about who I really am.
          And now I’m sitting wondering where the fûck I went wrong.
          Like can someone care for me?
          Or maybe it’s just me.
          Maybe it was my fault
          I don’t know how to talk to people.
          I crave being close to people, the hugging soft punches just being able to curl up to somebody, the small contented essence that seems to follow it.
          I really can’t be angry at you I guess
          I’m the mistake right
          That’s why you can’t love me.
          That’s why nobody does.
          I don’t want to ask for much.
          I want you to know I’m giving up, on you, it might take time lots of time, I mean it was easy to fall for you, it’s going to be harder to fall out of love now.
          If your wondering who I am am, this is me, the mess of a person your going to meet with a lot of dreams and so many tears and regret and pain and shame, and trouble but I hope you stay because I will care about you more than you will probably care about me and I overthink things way too much and right now everything hurts so bad because I am dying in a way I didn’t think was possible before.
          
          
          I freaking love to be hugged.
          I like just holding peoples hands and bending and folding the fingers, and I like warm people because my skin is so so cold.
          
          I think a lot, I think about what we are doing here I think about dying and crying and pain, but I also think about happiness and sometimes I want to forget that reality even exists.
          
          I love gaming, I don’t do it a lot, but I am very obsessive.
          
          I like to read, I like to write pretty words and sometimes want to etch them into my skin in hopes of keeping them forever because paper can burn but my mind is mine and so will words be scarred into it.

          
          I’m way to hard on myself, but I, also way over my head, I know what I can do and that’s enough for me.
          
          I like to do sports, I like the pain in my legs that seems to just stay there, I don’t mind it. But curse the gods or whatever for the person who gave me weak lungs, and the incapability to breath in enough oxygen at once.
          
          I prefer to call people, when I text I’m always first and the last on peoples mind when it come to friendship.
          
          When I’m mad I’m mad, but it takes time to get me irritated, you’ll find it a lot easier to make me sad.
          
          I like to dance, I’m bad at it though. 
          
          I cook, rap, and am so bad at singing that I can’t help but cringe everything I hear my voice.
          
          I wear black socks...
          Only 
          Sometimes
          I guess not anymore
          
          I like looking at rather skyline in the dark, I like hot cocoa and warm hugs and being bundled up in a blanket and like to feel small because I’m so freaking tall.
          
          I love anime, love old movies, am a messy person but at the same time crave cleanliness, always losing my glasses.
          
          I will be the first person to message you good morning and the last to message you goodnight, but will you?
          
          Tell me with all my faults why don’t you love me, why can’t you like me, why can’t we be friends?
          
          Or is it all a hopeless dream?
          Is it because I’m gay?
          Because I seem emotionless? But it’s. Ecuador I have so many emotions bottled up inside of me and I don’t know how to express them?
          
          Love me
          
          Please.