knowing that i would never be jisung's girl hurts me a lot. i already put so much of my effort and love for him. i dont know if i can live knowing he has a girl. i know fans should always support their bias or idol, but i guess im no longer liking him as a idol, but rather as a man. i love him. i do. this is what i felt towards luhan 3 years ago but i met this awesome guy and everything change in a snap. HE BECAME MY WORLD, I DONT CARE ABOUT OTHER GUYS ( except for my other bias ) but he really became my number one guy. I JUST WISH THAT SOMEDAY, I WILL BE THE GIRL WHO WILL MARRY HIM AND TELL EVERYBODY THAT " Hey guys, this isn't a dream anymore, the guy i loved since 2015, is now my husband and we are happy."