Even though I know it's my fault,but sometimes, sometimes I really think it's not my mistake, I wanted love desperately, that is why I never got anything in return. Love made me sick. I didn't know what I was doing. I never realized what I was doing... I was just a desperate soul. It's too late, and I was regretting it everyday, every minute. I am sorry, even though I want to shout to the whole world and wanted to apologize. You are not there to accept the apology. Will you ever forgive me? Because my heart feels so heavy with guilt.. I always think this, if I get a chance. If only I get one chance... I would change everything between us... And I will make sure we never cross our paths... It's better to be strangers... Because whenever I look back, I can't remember any of the sweet memories, all I can remember is pain... I pain you have me and the pain I have given you... We are both hurt. I wish we could have just stayed as strangers. Then would my heart feel lighter? Would the pain not be there? I wanted to erase everything between us. Because it's too much for my heart to take. Sometimes I really have this question in my mind, if I get a chance? Will I change everything between us? Or will i let the past repeat itself? What's strange is, I don't know the answer... Why would I regret so much??? When I never liked you so much.. but again, How it feels to like someone? When will my longing come to an end... When will I stop searching for love desperately? I don't know anymore... If only I could go back, I would ban myself for having feelings and wanting love... Because now I feel like, I can't get it... Even though I want love desperately. I still can't get it... Love is such a complicated word...
