bairiya_

I have wrote some books where i glorified rapist having happy endings, which at that time (when I wrote it) I was not matured enough to understand and normalizing such things because of what I saw in series and bollywood, where these kind of things are normal even here on wattpad I read so mamy books, which influenced me into writing such things. Now reading them back, makes me think of my decision I'm not ashamed of my language because of course I'm on the process of learning new things including languages, but I'm ashamed of those kind of endings which I gave to My character. 
          	
          	Even after experiencing these kind of things I wrote it but now it does affect me in a very emotional and uncontrollable way where i can't stop myself from hurting my ownself. I can't even read even if I try because of RTS.
          	
          	I'm not here to get sympathy but i guess the anxiety is coming back so my doctor has advised me to share it and if not it will again affect me. 
          	
          	I'm sorry and ashamed of my work. I'm deleting my book. I don't want new generation girl who is going to read my book to think that marital rape is okay. Because IT. IS NOT. And that's why I'm deleting my book THE LOVELESS MARRIAGE.
          	
          	And I'm again sorry for my immaturity and unresponsibleness. 
          	
          	Thank you so much if you have read till here....

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bairiya_

@Themaeve_ even if something like that didn't happened with me i still had chosen this way. 
          	  
          	  Glad you didn't read ^_^
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Themaeve_

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@bairiya_ you know what? I am so glad you took this decision, it takes alot to think about such things, and how it will affect the society's thoughts which is already so fucked up! I didn't even read that book but thank you so much!!!!
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bairiya_

I have wrote some books where i glorified rapist having happy endings, which at that time (when I wrote it) I was not matured enough to understand and normalizing such things because of what I saw in series and bollywood, where these kind of things are normal even here on wattpad I read so mamy books, which influenced me into writing such things. Now reading them back, makes me think of my decision I'm not ashamed of my language because of course I'm on the process of learning new things including languages, but I'm ashamed of those kind of endings which I gave to My character. 
          
          Even after experiencing these kind of things I wrote it but now it does affect me in a very emotional and uncontrollable way where i can't stop myself from hurting my ownself. I can't even read even if I try because of RTS.
          
          I'm not here to get sympathy but i guess the anxiety is coming back so my doctor has advised me to share it and if not it will again affect me. 
          
          I'm sorry and ashamed of my work. I'm deleting my book. I don't want new generation girl who is going to read my book to think that marital rape is okay. Because IT. IS NOT. And that's why I'm deleting my book THE LOVELESS MARRIAGE.
          
          And I'm again sorry for my immaturity and unresponsibleness. 
          
          Thank you so much if you have read till here....

sadiascribesx

@bairiya_ ❤
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bairiya_

@Themaeve_ even if something like that didn't happened with me i still had chosen this way. 
            
            Glad you didn't read ^_^
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Themaeve_

this message may be offensive 
@bairiya_ you know what? I am so glad you took this decision, it takes alot to think about such things, and how it will affect the society's thoughts which is already so fucked up! I didn't even read that book but thank you so much!!!!
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bairiya_

Hey guys i'm here to share something...
          
          Those who knows me even a little bit i once talked about anxiety. I mean i was not clear at that time if i it's even anxiety or not or is I being paranoid? But in last few years i started getting signs even my surroundings get to know about my anxiety and depression thing not my parents as i lived in hostel. It didn't happen without any reason. I don't know why it never bothered me before but it did bother me after 10 years of the incident that happened with me. I never accepted this publicly but here i am accepting the fact that i was being assaulted not once but many times. I never told anyone about this because i thought it happened because of me because of my stubbornness. And because of this I have Rape Trauma Syndrome. It happened only after 10 years. My first Assault by my school driver, who at that time approximately was 60 to 65 of age.

bairiya_

Hey guys I'm not back but I want to tell you guys something because it was you guys when I was here you heard my thoughts read and supported my stories.
          
          Read my next announcement it means a lot.
          
          Thank you so much.
          
          I'm living my best life♡

Themaeve_

@bairiya_ Aww thank you so much :)
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bairiya_

@Themaeve_ btw loved your pfp ^_^
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bairiya_

@Themaeve_ I'm sorry for this late reply but the announcement i was talking about i have delayed it and posted other announcement.
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