well , i think you should take a seat before i say anything . i'd rather you run off yet . i have no intention of frightening you & to be clear this has nothing to do with any infidelities , i promise . i just thought you should know that i come from a family of . . well , they're crazy to put it simply . my mom -- if you tell anyone this i'll kill you myself . my mother , once upon a time ago was married to my father , obviously , but we've never talked about who he was . i've lied and told you i don't know him , but i do . . i'm a rakovski . my father is arcadius rakovski . i mean , my mom killed him before i could meet him to keep her & i safe , but i seem to have caught the genes that come with being the monster he was . i just needed to be completely honest with you . i mean really all thats left for you to know is that i really hope i didn't freak you too badly with this .