@bananasexer ... Some people are assholes and sometimes we blame others for our own problems whether it's their fault or not, and when it's finally time that you seek comfort they think of you differently and will look away... Whether they think it's the right choice or their just having their own problems too life is a mystery and it's unfair unfortunately and fortunately we have to live in this life...
If you try to reach out again choose someone who's willing to help you literally with life.