Ell or Jayy

ARE YOU DEAD????? ;(

I honestly have no clue how to come out to my parents gosh. I'm like girls girls girls right now if that makes sense. If it doesn't to you, it means I really really like girls over boys right now. But I'm pansexual (yes I have sex with pans.) so yeah. 

:,( life 

Well it's 3:25am where I am 

PERKS OF BEING PANSEXUAL:
          When I sing a love song I don't have to change the lyrics. (And yes I understand that it's 3:25am I don't want to fall asleep gosh.)

I'm yawning but every time I close my eyes I see the most terrifying thing ever. It's the same nightmare type thing that's haunted me since I was 6. I really wish I had someone I love next to me. I never ever say that but now mean it 

I'm so paranoid and stressed RN. It's like everyone hates me and judges me. I feel so lonely. 

It's 2:20 in the fucking morning and I'm wide awake. It's super hard to sleep when you're really stressed. My cat it cuddling with me :) 

I wish I could write songs. I can just not when I freaking need to. 

I'M FRUSTRATED