bangtanie_13

You know why this hurts? Because I hardly had good friends in my life, most of them used me due to my nature and then finally left me.. but when I finally found a friend in you to talk and share things, you also left me, just like the others did.. And the fact that I had never expected this from someone as matured as you (since you are elder to me), hurts more..
          	Also that you deleted our messages from my message board?! Bro that was the only proof of how happy I was to message you.. how happy I was to see your message in my mb after coming back from college..
          	 It's sad to say but I had somehow predicted that this would happen due to my past experiences.. I noticed this in the month of May or something that you were trying to be distant from me.. but I still tried, messaged you to just check if you were fine.. But your replies were always nonchalant, as if you never cared.. but I still thought you might have some personal reason which I never even asked you about.. 
          	I know you'll never see this message since you have blocked me, but I want one thing.. one valid reason for why you left like this, without any information..
          	If it's really a valid reason, I won't bother you anymore.. But I do need a reason..
          	I don't have much to tell.. already my mental health is somehow surviving and I don't want to add any other stress to my brain, I've had enough
          	
          	And "friend", I see you often in bun's message board, I hope you have a happy time there, I often read your messages but since I don't interact there I won't bother you too.. hope you stay safe wherever you are.
          	
          	Bye

bangtanie_13

@Flakes_ofsnow03  I do not hold any grudge against you and never did even after all this.. you don't owe me anything.. I used to ask about your health because it was genuine concern and I remember when once I asked you if it was too personal to even ask about your health, you said it's not a problem.. but now ik, i shouldn't have asked.. and pls don't think that I forgot about you telling me not to ask about your health, I remember that very clearly and also remember that I was very sad that day.. but anyways I considered myself silly for overthinking.. but during all this, I'm honestly telling you that I was genuinely upset, because I felt like you acted like that only with me.. so I reread all our conversations just to see if I had made a mistake by any chance.. Not to forget, I saw you interacting with others better than how you did with me.. along with that you deleted all our mb messages, one proof of how I'd found a friend in you to share things.. but things happen, we cannot do anything about it.. but I choose to stay quiet from now on because idk how the person on the other side's gonna feel about it.. you know, messages never convey emotions, that's all I wanna say.

bangtanie_13

You know why this hurts? Because I hardly had good friends in my life, most of them used me due to my nature and then finally left me.. but when I finally found a friend in you to talk and share things, you also left me, just like the others did.. And the fact that I had never expected this from someone as matured as you (since you are elder to me), hurts more..
          Also that you deleted our messages from my message board?! Bro that was the only proof of how happy I was to message you.. how happy I was to see your message in my mb after coming back from college..
           It's sad to say but I had somehow predicted that this would happen due to my past experiences.. I noticed this in the month of May or something that you were trying to be distant from me.. but I still tried, messaged you to just check if you were fine.. But your replies were always nonchalant, as if you never cared.. but I still thought you might have some personal reason which I never even asked you about.. 
          I know you'll never see this message since you have blocked me, but I want one thing.. one valid reason for why you left like this, without any information..
          If it's really a valid reason, I won't bother you anymore.. But I do need a reason..
          I don't have much to tell.. already my mental health is somehow surviving and I don't want to add any other stress to my brain, I've had enough
          
          And "friend", I see you often in bun's message board, I hope you have a happy time there, I often read your messages but since I don't interact there I won't bother you too.. hope you stay safe wherever you are.
          
          Bye

bangtanie_13

And today that person left me.. blocked me so that I can never ever talk to them, can never read their books.. I am not going to mention the name but I hope if that person sees this message (which they won't), they get to know that it's them whom I'm talking about.
          Like bro?! What did I even do to you? Tell me.. 
          You literally stopped replying to my messages.. whenever I used to message you in your mb, you never replied in an excited way.. 
          You weren't like this before.. bruh you could've just unfollowed me, what had I done that you literally blocked me..

bangtanie_13

It's sad that people promise you that they'll always be there for you, listen to whatever you want to blurt out, you almost start believing that you've made the best choice talking to them or being close to them, but one day,
          They disappear.
          They act as if they never made such promises, never even knew you in the first place let alone care about you.
          At times it's hard to believe that those people who made such promises could even behave like that with you. It becomes too much to take in, never leaving your mind filled with such thoughts, causing suffocation.