JohnLennonhusband
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Hello zada. I came here to say something. Look. As I have been improving I reflected on my own actions towards you In the past and I admit I was a bad friend. Well I was a whole fucking narcissist. I took my angry, frustration, needs for attention, and abandonment onto you. I was jealous that you would help people who would asked help from you and I lashed out on you for that. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have threaten to kill myself, threatened to cut myself or any of that stuff. I was mad at everyone at that time and wanted to take out all that on to one specific person and that was you. I wanted people to feel the pain that I had felt from my trauma and I know it was fucked up but I still did it and traumatized you and that doesn't make it any better I'm sorry. I'm sorry for. Using. Your bad actions at the time as an excuse as to. Hurt you and I'm sorry for calling you all those horrible disgusting names. I'm really sorry because I wanna mature and grow as a person for the people around me. I'm sorry about all the stuff you went through me. I understand if you don't wanna reply or. Forgive me. You don't have to. I do my care if anything I do have to earn your trust, respect and forgiveness again because I was awful. I'm sorry.