basicallynugget
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Hello to my remaining followers & perhaps mutuals
I'm kinda surprised that this horrendous account still has followers itself LOL although, no doubt that many people's phases/interest in Wattpad died down and they might not even have the app anymore.
I remembered avoiding this section of my life ever since I deleted the app myself but coming back to it with a much better, healthier mentality and maturity, I just really can't stop thinking about how cringy I was, but I was also so free and I had many friends who didn't care and liked me for who I was.
It felt nice looking through old (and humiliating) posts, to writing and art works, to just random shit and even game screenshots of my friends and I, seeing how far I've come.
Now, a reason as to why I've been avoiding it til now..I just felt guilty. For leaving things like this, with many mistakes, and perhaps hurting a few friends.
I was still struggling with many things ever since leaving, and just knew I wasn't prepared to face this Wattpad catastrophe.
(I reached the maximum words, so uh, more below! )
basicallynugget
I will not lie, around the time I was really active here; I was growing depressed, definitely stressed and on top of that, I was a tween going through changes in their life they couldn't understand.
So I sought out the comfort in here, to posting whatever I could, be lost in my imagination and interests, and to talk to the people I met here; but while also having pretty shitty communication issues and instead continuously kept trying to run away, making new (irrelevant) accounts that it even pissed me off having to deactivate all of them. Not gonna lie, it also made me sad, since each account was a reminder on how difficult it was for younger me to see that there were actual people who cared for me.
Of course, I've acknowledged these poor decisions since and have changed for the better, but this doesn't excuse the pain I may have caused and I'm just overall really, really sorry for my actions before. I take full accountability, and I really do hope you all are doing well.
I don't know if this is exactly a goodbye, since I'm not THAT dramatic anymore, but I also don't plan to be active, or change and overall touch anything else in this account since it's such an ancient relic atp
So I guess it's a See you when I see you!! ^^
