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TBH, I miss her so much. But we're not meant for each other. I just hope that she's fine. I'm on my way to fulfill my promise. I'll get the help that I need. IF I need any. That's not for me to say. Today sucks. I feel miserable in some ways. But it's ok. I won't do stupid things. I'll be ok for sure. I always am.
I am tired. I got into an accident on 17 Jan. Too many things to pay for. The car that hit me claims money from my dad. I'll need money to pay for it. But I'm still a student. Will I have to change my plans? Should I delay my studies? What should I do? I'm dumb. Just as he says. Then why am still here? Why does God despise me so much? Why does it get worse every day? Do you really have to remind me of how pathetic I am every day? Oh.. I remember now. It must be because I felt happy. It must be that. I shouldn't be happy. What was I thinking? I wanna die. I wanna escape all this mess. But if I escape, I'll only leave it to the one who lives. I'm sorry.
I need to be controlled
Can't seem to shake this off
Dengan rasminya, aku dah jatuh cinta
Benarkah hati yang bersuara itu membantu, atau hanya dibalas dengan pekaknya telinga si dia?
Can't sleep again. Fuck it.
I need to be honest with myself. I hate this.
Stop hurting me.
If love can be mutual,
Is it worth my effort?