- would you be sad if it goes away?
*hesitated* - of course, yes, it has been 12 years. that's an entire orbit around the sun of Jupiter. that's a huge part of my youth. that's bigger than any commitment i've made consciously in my entire little life. what do you think?
- i think life is vicissitude. *breathes* your youth ends. ours all do. i also think you would be sad, so i agree, it's a dull question. i guess what i meant was how sad would you be. what can you do to finally move on? because you cannot dwelve in the inevitable forever, can you? see, some loss will never be compensated. but it is out of your hands. all losses are. if we have any power over it, we would never lose a thing. you don't lose things when you get rid of it. what i mean is you shouldn't blame yourself, or anyone, honestly. it's vicissitude. sorry i say that word alot but do you know what i mean?
- i do, so well, sadly. but would you be able to help it if it was you? we're all human in the end. i can't help but think what could i have done differently though it wouldn't change a thing. i know it's out of my hands but my hands are tied, and my heart is twisted. it aches.
- i know it does. it's normal that it does. i guess i just hope you have strength to adapt to the ache. be sad, be twisted, cry out loud. losses are meant to be dealt with that way. and then be strong, be still. when pain and scars are engraved on your twisted heart. when it sings the bluest waltz, it only gets better from there.